JerseyJules

I just keep second guessing myself on this whole procedure..

I also woke up with a massive headache...Dont know if its from nerves or the lack of caffeine or sugar.

I have been told I have a baby face, so hoping I will look younger than I do now.

Ugggg...Few hours to go and my nerves are killing me..Hoping I made the right choice.

I would think it would be offensive if you simply walked up to someone on the street and say "wow, you're morbidly obese"... Other than that it is just a medical term.

I will post an update the second I can. I am getting more and more anxious as the day goes by and I will tell you this clear liquid diet today SUCKS!!!!

Nervous, anxious, excited,stressed, sad,depressed,happy...I am every single one of those emotions right now and my stomach is in knots. I go in the hospital tomorrow at 12:30 pm for my Sleeve procedure, and I didnt think this day would ever come. Nervous- Im nervous cause i hate medical facilities and surgeries, I have had quite a few and i always get butterflies the day before and the day of the procedure. Anxious- cause I just cant wait to just get this over with already, all the preparation and tests and reasoning with myself as to why I need to do it, I just want to be done with it already and move on. Excited- I was looking at pictures from when I was down to a 34" waist and was 215lbs of pure sexiness, Im excited to get down there again cause I remember how good it felt and how confident and in control of my life I felt. Stressed- the back and forth reasoning in my head, combined with the unknown and the permanency of the decision I had to make has stressed me beyond belief these past several months. Sad- cause I know the party is over for me..The time has arrived for me to face my worst enemy and my best friend and part ways with it forever. food...Im sad to see you go for now, but perhaps we will have a healthy relationship after this, not the abusive one sided relation ship we have had for the past 40 years.. Depressed- Im depressed at the fact that I have lost control of my life and my body to the point it has had to come to this. I am ashamed of myself that my motivation to do the right thing has gone away in the past few years and I have given in to food and let myself fail once again in my life. Happy- Im happy that there is a way out for me and I have chosen to do it finally. I have always told myself "Im not fat enough to do that surgery" when I saw friends do it and loose a ton of weight. I always did not understand and called it the easy way out and thought of them as weak minded cowards...Until I realized this one thing No matter how hard you try,you can not solve a permanent problem with a temporary solution.

Im getting surgery tomorrow and had my last real big meal last night, and am on all Clear liquids for today. I can tell you mentally I dont know if Im ready for this..Physically I know I need it, mentally it will be hard for a while, till I see results and realize it was worth it. I am terrified of what the future holds and what foods I will and will not be able to tolerate, but my future not doing anything about it terrifies me even more. Another thing you don't realize is how many darn food commercials there are on TV until you cant eat solids.. Oh well, no turning back now!!!

I go in for the sleeve tomorrow , is this what I have to look forward to? LOL

Whatever the weight that your removed stomach would weigh..LOL

I recently started seeing a behavioral psychologist to help me prepare and follow up with my clear addiction to food...I want to find out WHY I was eating and what it meant so I can control it. This week leading up to the surgery I have been very emotional and have been tearing up and wanting to cry over the smallest things..i really feel Im due for a good cry, the last one I had was when my father died 3 years ago, after leaving his funeral I simply sat at the top of his street in my rental car and cried like a 2 year old, I didnt cry at or during the funeral much..But just let it go realizing that i was letting him go in the process...I need to perhaps cry and let the old me go..

Ill take the honeymoon period any time as long as i loose the weight..lol

Im having mine done in St. Peters on Monday!!!!

Me, Im in East Brunswick kinda close..

My buddy said he lost 45 lbs the first month..I dont know if thats 100% factual or not..

Thank you everyone for all the responses..I just had my last real big meal and my last beer, thanks to my wife's friend Yolanda who cooked for us tonight.Tomorrow is all liquids and Monday is show time!!!! I just want to be done and get on with the rest of my life...

A little off topic and not to hijack but my doctor does want me taking Prilosec OTC leading up to and after the surgery as well as vitamins. How long after the surgery is it until can you take vitamins??? I mean physically swallow them..

If your having trouble hitting calories,may I make a suggestion , since the one thing i have mastered over the years is taking in calories... Add a home made Protein shake, but use almond milk or yogurt and add some Peanut Butter and honey or some frozen fruit for a few extra calories.. I know if you take in too little calories your body will shut down and go into starvation mode which you dont want. you wont lose the weight you want and you will be unhealthy..

Why does it take so long to drink right after? Is it pain or it just wont go down?

Why so much pain? What was the issue??

I am choosing to get WLS (on Monday) because I really do know that I CAN NOT do it on my own. I have been overweight my whole life and have lost and gained weight several times with no long term success. So I definitely know from my experiences having tried over and over again that I will no do it on my own..Our bodies will not let us at this point..

Well I hope Im in the same category as you gals!!!!

Oh and PS, 2 days to go and I cant tell if in nervous or excited to start a new episode in my life. My stomach has been in knots for the past few days...

How far out are you now and how do you feel? Can you get your Proteins in now? Cause you can get sick from not getting them in..

Oh well...He'll be back, they always come back..