Wow! Hard, harsh, "blunt" .... But true. It was a slap in my face that hurts but wakes me. I'd like to thank you guys for all your answers. Just knowing that someone took the time to read what a complete stranger has to say and to care enough to answer that means a lot. Thank you so much for caring, for the hard words and for the support. I should have done before but it is what it is, there's no way to go back on time. I will talk to him tomorrow when we wake up. I know he will support me. It's just that I'm so decided on going thru with the surgery that I'm avoiding anything or anybody that would try to convince me otherwise. Ill keep you guys posted with the outcome. Wish me luck !!! : )