forensicmary

I am a 44 yo registered nurse who is a Director of Quality in a small hospital in NWO. I have researched all my options. Orginally I wanted the VSG but now I really feel that the gastric plication is the tool I need to increase my chance of losing weight and keeping it off. I like that it is revisable and is not associated with malabsorption . I made my decision after two years of lurking on weight loss sites and trying various diets, personal training and pills. I would lose 15 and gain 20. I have watched my ability to snorkel and walk on vacation turn into shortness of breath and fatigue. I walk up the stairs to beat of 132 pulse. This has improved with cardio at the gym (120's ) I have beat myself up. Refused to go out with my husbands friends because they are thin and I am embarassed for my husband. Really I have spent my time making other people happy and not myself necessarily. Weight loss will not make me beautiful ( It is what is inside that counts). It will not make me successful as I feel that I am succesful professionally regardless of my weight. Weight loss will increase my energy and my overall health. My fears are complications related to the surgery. I am having my consultation appointment by phone with Dr. Brad Watkins from Cincinnati Weight Loss on Sept 7, 2011. I am 5 ft 3 inches and 216.5 today. This is a 38.4 BMI . So far I dont have high blood pressure or diabetes. I dont want them either. I will keep you posted:)

It is good to take care of myself. It is a major purchase. Thank gooodness my husband supports the decision. I know it is going to help me prevent some of the high blood pressure and diabetes associated with weight gain. So I am just going to go forward and use the tool that is available to me.

My "this is it" happened this past week. I reached 220 and I am uncomfortable daily. I am 5 ft 3 and successful except for this area of my life. I see myself in a window of a shop and I am startled by my weight gain, embarassed of my vacation pictures and really avoiding social situations. I have lurking on weight losss sites for two years but really thought it was all about me not being in control of myself. I have tried multiple diets, pills, personal training etc. I am glad I am doing this because it is the only selfish thing I have done for myself. I dont think it is magic but it is a powereful tool that will help me reach my goals!

I am still pre WLS. Having my consult this Thursday. I am short so weight goes to the middle so I have experience the amusment ride restriction, seat belt and getting in and out of my car in the garage. I am looking forward to loosing more than just 15 pounds and gaining it back!