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Hell no GG, in between all those veggies was chocolate and fruit cake and the like.......Not bragging or making an excuse..I think it is just dam hard work that keeps the weight going down.....not to mention my little tiny tummy!!!!!

Hit onederland today..Actually maybe I was there before but I actually weighed my self so it is official....182 lbs. down and gone......yup I can't believe it either!!!!! 28 to go to get to my goal......come on RJ you can do it....rah, rah, rah!!!!!!

I understand the food police part..I have had this issue since I was sleeved over a year ago...The worst one is oh I thought you would not have been able to eat that much..Or you did good honey, you ate most of it...Decide am I eating too much or not enough... I have now warned him that if he comments on my food intake I may quite possibly break his nose..This is a man who can chow down anything at any time and maybe lose weight as he is one of those people.. I know his heart is in the right place...i just need him to put it somewhere else.......So I get it!!! I have resorted to the prospect of violence if he does not stop monitoring my food...lol

Thank you, I hope you are right!

Congratulations...you are on your way to a new you!

Why? Is the Bible the sole text of religion on this planet or is the sole text of religion for you? I got 13 correct. I stand corrected PdxMan

Still waiting kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I only got 9 right....But to be fair..i don't think this was a real religious questionnaire..... I think that all the questions should have been based on the bible and only the bible W hat trouble are you up to now GG?

I am so excited for you that your life has taken a happier and favorable turn of events....You deserve to be happy and living life to the fullest....You are an example to me for when it is the time for me to take a deep breath and jump into a new world myself......It will happen I promise...Just not right now!!!! You know.....I really appreciate you and your thoughts and especially your kindness.....

Yes I know I have PTSD so does my daughter and my hubby. They are treating mine with the usual depression meds....Nothing different..I am doing the work a lone and trying to come out of the darkness into the light of all of this......Thank you for your kind words!!!!!!!

You sound a little like me...sorry that you are struggling as well..I know that we will find our way out of this paper bag someday and see that at no matter what coast we did the right thing for us...I admire you so much for your words of wisdom on this forum and honesty. I believe that you cannot help people unless you keep it real. And you do kid!

After I wrote the last thread we lost power almost immediately....5 days I lived on raw veggies and bread and fruit....A little meat as well..But very little.....Just another cog in the wheel.... I thought that there would be a lot of expressions in my last thread but only a few of you saw the need to respond.....I understand, it is not easy to respond to a downer at times..... My son in law just came back from the Philippines and he said I did not look smaller but that I grew more hair..Excellent I thought....I am still getting my hair back!!!!! That is a positive thing for me...Now I have to get the house back together and make a real dinner...!!!!

I just got a like from a fellow sleever on one of my earlier posts I made early in 2012....I went back to read it myself and wow....The confidence and resolve I had at the time was unbelievable! I was not going to take any prisoners you know....Had a mind set of WLS and was going forward to the completion of a new and improved me....All the struggles I have had over the years of being obese and being laughed at and looked at and made to feel like I was not worth the dirt below peoples feet.. Brought me to this place in my life... I knew that I was on a downward spiral and also knew that I was headed for a wheel chair or death...i could barely function due to a fall I had a few years before...I was in a desperate place and needed assistance so badly...I was on my way and there was no stopping me. Sorta like a freight train out of control...In my mind I felt that no matter what I would conform to the "normal". I made sure that only a few knew what I decided to do and they were all supportive....And off I went to do what I so desperately needed done...I was so excited and could not wait to start my new journey..With the wait and see the new me world and **** you! As some of you know it did not happen that way!!!!! Fast forward a year and the new me is not the person I had hoped she would be...She is still scared and hurting and working continuously to over come all the set backs I have had over the last year.... My entire world turned upside down and everyone that I thought were my true friends abandoned me and my family. No one was the same right down to the medical personal that I was going to on a regular basis before the surgery...It was as if everyone became strangers and no longer knew me....I was thrown into some kind of warp..And to this day do not understand how I got here.... I am alone in this as there is no one in my area that has come forward to talk to me about all of what they have experienced and maybe we could have encouraged each other I don't know...It's possible that they don't want anyone to know either so I am on my own here... I really am having trouble dealing with the "new me" and all that it has dished out...I cry at the drop of a hat mourning my old life with friends..I did not know any better back then that they were not real....It was truly like I had died a slow and painful death...One that i am reminded of daily as I struggle with the new complications that came from my decision a year ago.... I will never truly understand all the things that has happened over the year as it was out of my control...and I don't think I will ever get a real handle on WLS as well...There are to many facets to it to be able to fix it all...Hence a life long change... I am grateful for this forum even though sometimes I zig when I should zag and get attitude.....It has been a forum for me to express my long and difficult journey and changes in my world... Yes I am smaller, yes I can do much more...Have I gone out and searched for a new life?..Nope! Can't trust it yet. Will I ever get over all that has happened to me? Don't know! I want to thank everyone that has followed my experience and have been so positive and encouraging to me... I am glad I did it and would experience it all again for the trade. But I had no idea that this would totally throw my life into chaos and make me a completely different person...That I will never be the same that truly, undeniably the past me did die when I had the complications of WLS Thank you for hearing me out... How has your life changed? Please share with me!!!!!!!

For me it is beef, hummus, dry chicken and pork..So far everything else has gone down smooth as silk..... Sweets, pop corn, they are not a problem..Wish they were..Like Laura said...Will power is the only answer for me.......dang!

I tip my hat to you..you brought this all back under control by your own sweet nature....thank you for your understanding of others who were really trying to help you.. I lost sight of things on this thread as well and backed off so that I wouldn't make things worse..So glad you are back on track and so glad that you see us all for what our intention was and that was to aid you... You can really see a difference in the photos ...onward go girl and you'll be there in no time...All the best hun!!!!!!

Never piss me off, RJ. I will try to remember...lol

Remind me never to piss you off...lol

Last year I was on a feeding tube and so I did not have any good stuff, not even a smell..this year my daughter made all her cookie gifts at my house and it all smelled divine... I have not been really good at all....but! I plan on going back to the program Thursday...I will have to detox but it has been kinda nice to be here and not there with people I did not even know..... So we are all kinda celebrating the fact that I am here this year..How do you fight that one eh...i am doing it by being careful, really careful!!!!!!!!

I just got 3 books in the mail this morning..I am interested in reading all three..They are: why We Get Fat and What To Do About It. Good Calories Bad Calories: Wheat Belly. Two are written by Gary Taubes. And the third is written by William Davis, MD I know nothing about the value of these books but hope I learn something cool...

What she said. I didn't see what you said as negative at all, you were simply sharing your POV which we all enjoy. NO worries Personally, I always enjoy reading your posts, RJ. You have faced your many challenges with a great deal of grace & strength, and I admire you tremendously. IMHO, your experience us quite valuable to many of the members here, and I always appreciate you sharing it.

You are so right..kinda cool eh!

Never mind....I must have gotten out of the wrong side of the bed for the last few days...

When it is crunch time..They will deal. Fear is a scary thing..They are just worried for you.. But they seem to respect your decision...Once all is done and you are on your way, they will be there no matter what..that is how family is and a true friend is... All the best, soon you will be a loser like all of us on here!!!!lol

Sorry to you as well...i was just expressing my thoughts meant nothing by any of it...

I did not consider myself fighting Laura....I am not condoning pizza for a newbie to the sleeve....Thanks for your input though on the thread......Like Lipsticklady...I am referring to healthy pizza......for a food in the future...I was merely talking to her..That was my intent..... Probably the wrong place to talk to her about it..Maybe we should have taken it to a private place.....I guess sometimes getting real and saying how you really feel can make people uncomfortable..For that I apologize.....