ksangster

Hi everyone, I am 5 months postop and feeling kind of down. I had surgery on 5/3/12. I was soo excited and scared but I knew that this was what i needed to do for so many reasons. Sleep apnea, heart condition, and so on...the surgery went extremely well and I have lost some weight. Unable to tell just how much because I have not been weighing myself consistently. Matter of fact, I only weigh when I go to my doctor appts and there have only been two since the surgery. I have another appt this month, 9/12. I have gone from a size 28 to a size 24 but I am back to my old eating habits. I did the liquid fast for two weeks before surgery and I did the gradual return to solid foods after surgery. I have not exercised as much as I should and not really understanding why I don't have the motivation to do better. I do have more energy than I had before the surgery and I am walking farther distances but I just can't seem to stick with any type of disciplined food and exercise regimen. The surgery was the tool I needed to help but I must find the mental tools to complete the weight loss. I am a receptionist and I sit at a desk all day and want to snack on anything and everything that is not good for me. It's like I know what I need to do but don't have the will power to do it. As I write this I am crying inside and out because I know nothing is easy and nothing worth having comes easy. I know I must put in the work but ......anyone ben where I am?? Please give me some words of encouragement and support and thanks for listening