Blossom12 you have so hit the nail on the head for me! It's not that I don't want to be healthy...it's that I'm scared of the change...meaning am I being too drastic! But your quote "I thought I had the strength to do it myself after I was approved for surgery last year, but it was really just because I was afraid of the drastic change I was about to face and I still wasn't mentally or emotionally prepared" is mean exactly! I have the knowledge. I used to be an aerobics instructor and all! I was a plus size one though. But I was darn good! Now that I am getting ready to put myself through a more strict nutrition plan, I'm wondering if it will be too much. To be honest, I think it's more just me being afraid to not have the flexibile I have now if I want to have a piece of candy...or 1 or 2 fries, or whatever. I've seriously changed my eating since I've been on the new journey and now I just feel empowered and am worried that the non-flexibility that I will have for some time will be regretful. I have to say though that NO ONE in the videos I've watched or even reading the blogs on here has said they are sorry they have done it. I guess I just answered my own question. I am going to setup my time today! Please follow me on youtube thesleevedsinger