I haven't had the surgery yet...still learning up and hitting meetings now to get the medical end, but one thing I can say that might help...I had a ruptured brain aneurysm a few years ago and I spent months in hospitals, didn’t even have much memory but when I woke up in the last hospital months down this road… I saw someone smoke outside I had no idea what it was and remember months have past so I had no drug habit left in me for them. But I knew I wanted one! So even when we cannot really think our old habits are hard to break… this journey with food bad vs good and all I’m expecting it to be long and not always easy but we can retain our heads so accept mistakes and plow forward. It seems to me that you are all doing great.