Gusso5

I'm next week -- and I'm feeling everything everyone else is! I wasn't required to do pre-op because my BMI is 35. Although now it's probably higher. Way over-eating and not feeling like exercising. I'm sure that's not what the Dr. had in mind. I will start a "cleanse" with shakes and lean Protein tomorrow, just so I will feel better.
Feeling depressed too because food is my favorite form of medicating every feeling. Happy. Eat. Sad. Eat. Stressed. Eat. I will schedule an appointment with my family counselor to work through it. I am scared I won't be able to stick to Clear Liquids and liquids only and soft... and will compromise my staple line...and will have complications. I need to start thinking positive. At my bible study, the lesson was all about God giving us second chances -- and this is mine! (I had lap band with multiple problems, but it's been out for five years.)
Also feeling very alone because I haven't really told anyone -- just a friend and a family member...but I need to tell my adult child... and I keep putting it off because i don't want to alarm anyone.
So I'm glad I have all of you.
Your enthusiasm and spirit and positive energy keeps me going. I will post when I get home for all the 5/9 red velvets!