3-Sibe-Mom

I go to see the doc tomorrow afternoon. I am nervous for several reasons. Before being admitted to the hospital he emptied my band. In the past week I have began to feel somewhat human again. I feel I still have a way to go before I can take a nice long walk. With that being said I fear that I could be released to work. I do not have the strength to fight 150 pound teen boys yet. The set backs I had really put me behind in the healing process. I still can't take my dogs outside to potty. Therefor unable to take them on walks due to all of the pulling. I am also worried that I will get a fill. I don't think I am ready and have been doing just fine without any fluid. I just had an awful time with 4cc's and in 2 visits had to have it drained. That was on liquids. I am sure he won't do it if I request that it not be done. I just need to stop stressing.

I woke up this morning with a positive out look. I did great until I again was in tears from the barfy feeling that would not go away. It was at the point where just opening my eyes made me heave. I called and I was told this is classified as an emergency an to come in now. I explained to the doctor when I arrived that I am a very violent vomitter and I know that causes serious problems so I have been fighting it for 4 days now and just can not take it any longer. Well I survived my first adjustment. I had to have fluid removed. OMG the relief I felt it was pretty much instant the pukey feeling gone! Apparently my band became to full. I am still very puzzled how this could happen. I felt fine up till 4 days ago and then all of a sudden whamo. He told me to tolerate the protein drinks. He also believed that now they would be easier to drink now that the nausea was gone. Well that is a no go. For what ever reason I still can't stomach them. He also adjusted my diet and told me all liquids again. After reviewing the paperwork he gave me again. I was on the right diet. I dunno. Here I go again. I just hope this hungry thing goes away as it makes me weak and supper tired. Also I was worried about the adjustment because I read up on how it's done. People say that it is pretty painful. Piece of cake, the only thing I felt was the numbing shot (2). Mmmm c..a..k..e. Sorry all, I mentioned cake.

I feel misserable. I am so hungry that it is making me ill. My head hurts, I am nauseated, and light headed. I have always had this problem as far back as I can remember. In the past I resolved it by eating. I can't do that anymore. Although it has only been 3 days of feeling like this, I am misserable. About 12 years ago I starved myself and lost over 100 pounds. I only allowed myself veggies and chicken. Approx 300 calories a day. One of the reasons I regained all the weight plus 70 pounds was because of the frequent nagging hungar that caused health problems from the starvation. I promised myself that I would never do that again as well as live so misserably. I was told with the band you will not feel hungry all the time execpt briefly between meals. Ok it has been 3 days and I feel very ill from being hungry. This feeling brings back awful memories for me. I just want to know if it will go away. All I have done is cry tonight. I feel like such poo that nothing distracts me from the ill feeling.