asquill17

Well I'm waiting for my pre auth to be done an then we'll be doin the x-ray. Just waiting on that... I think I might be too tight, but I'm hoping that's all it is and I haven't slipped or stretched my stoma. Thank you!! I couldnt be happier w the results.. I'm just so embarrassed by my carelessness I am feeling like a bit of a failure. Like I sabotaged myself..

So I joined up here on wed. For about a week or so I had been waking up w pain deep down my throat. The pain didn't allow for sleep. I haven't been x-ray'd yet but I have put myself on a full liquid diet. No pain since. A little background, I was banded in nov. 2010. I reached my goal in Jan 2012. 140 pounds total loss. I recently became lazy and I guess felt invisible and fell off the wagon, binging at night. I'm ashamed and embarrassed and now nervous I caused some serious damage. In august I had an episode. For a few days I felt stuck everytime I ate. I had a short stint of drinking while eating when I was on vacation. I feel terrible. I should know better. My band was a gift and I'm so scared I ruined it...

Yes I'm pretty sure I'm going to need an unfill.. That's just fine as I just recently had a fill 2 days ago. I honestly think I just need to reign it in.. Recommit and refocus. I feel like I became lazy once I reached goal. This is reminding me why I did this in the first place. I made major lifestyle changes for the better... It's a step backward to watch tv late at night with a half a bag of cheetos. . I'm terribly embarrassed and ashamed...

I'm Anna I was banded back in nov. 2010 . I'm loving this support group. Im about to go for a barium x-ray to see what state my tummy is in and I'm super nervous. I have become careless. I started binge eating late at night again. I'm sure I have stretched my pouch.. But a few nights I've woken very late with terrible pain in my esophagus. Hurts to breathe. It resolves by mid morning. I'm back on liquids, I haven't had any unfills yet, but I'm thinking that's probably next step. I'm freaked out. Can anyone help calm my nerves? I've been at goal for about 9 months now (140 total loss) I'm scared! I don't want to lose my band or have to go through surgery... I don't have any money to pay on my own and I'm not sure my ins. Will cover any procedure...