*hugs*
not easy but I do think the timing is beautiful. The season with him in it came and went. This journey is a deeply personal one in which your faith is going to bring you through. A new season will come bringing the right person with it
Right now this is your time. Get to know you, on your own, and keep building that mindset. Mokee is right- You do have us, and you'll be pleasantly about how rich an experience something like this can turn out to be - hurtful start and all.
Also- here's a favorite video of mine on the beauty of being alone vs lonely.