iamparadise

Thanks for the updates. I'm so glad to hear that all is well (all pain aside of course). I'm fast approaching my surgery date and I can feel my anxiety building... It's kind of silly but I'm terrified of (and dreading) the Barium solution that they say we have to drink post-op. YUCK.

36 years old and never... been "normal" weight, or size been the "skinny" friend worn a bikini (or been waxed!) swapped clothes with a friend been married or had kids been swept off my feet/carried sat on anyone's lap worn a LBD worn shorts intentionally been 100% confident in my relationships (I frequently find myself questioning motives - i.e. are they really interested in me, or is there something else) I'm really working on that one though... I'm gradually becoming more aware of my worth and all that I have to offer outside of my physical being. Maybe when my mind connects fully with my spirit, and my body catches up with everything else I'll finally find (or be found by) "the one" I could probably go on forever and day listing my "nevers", but Im excited about the newest and most monumental "nevers" of my life... Never have I had 80% of my stomach removed to improve my current and future life. Never have I been willing to take such a huge step to do something just for ME

Me too!!! I can hardly believe how close it all is!

Thanks for the welcome! I can't believe how real it's all becoming & near it all is! Holy Moses!!! Look out world..

Wow! This is a bit weird. Is the first time I'm posting and the first time I'm talking about my surgery with anyone outside my "bubble". I'm trying to work up the courage to start/join conversations. 36yrs 5' 7.5" 304 Nervously excited...soooo happy for everyone. Yay April! Yay new beginnings!