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[size=6] My name is Cynthia and I was a very unhappy HAPPY person. I was very active riding horses, playing sports, going all the time. Most people thought I was ok with my size and always told me how pretty of a smile I had. (I HATED IT WHEN THEY SAID THAT) I was always the big girl in my class and when I got older I was always the big girl every were I went. Life for me was all about food. I love food and I love trying differant foods. When my husband (or anyone else) would ask me what I wanted to do for anniversary, birthday, date etc. my answer was always go out to eat. I was hungry all the time and would eat until I was sick to my stomach and then in just a short time I was starving again. My life revolved around food and if I didn't eat I would get sick and weak and almost pass out, and a few times did pass out. I hating myself because of my lack of control and my looks. However over and over again I would diet, loss, gain even more than I had lost and then start it all over again, until I was 260 lbs., Then I started having health issues. I was so tired of Hospitals and Dr.. I was on alot of medicines. I had been in the Hopsital 3 seperate times that year for a week at a time with Heart issues kidney and bladder issues and every time they would send me home not really sure what was going on. However a Doctor that I had used several years back would tell me every time I was in his office that I needed to loss weight and that It would help in every area of my health. So I decided to check into Lap band surgery. At first my Insurance approved me but I had to jump thru hoops first go back to Drs., nutritionalist, etc. I did everything that they ask. All was well until one week before my surgery they found an exclusion. So they didn't pay for it. I did however get it financed and I would do it all again. I started at 260 lbs. However by the time you do the pre- surgery diet and stuff I had lost several lbs before the surgery. My surgery was in Dec. of 2008 while the Dr. was doing my Lapband surgery he fixed a very large Hydial hernia(don't know how to spell it) and from that day on for 2 years I didn't have a single problem with chest pains or reflux or any of the other simptoms that I had before when the Dr. would think I was having a heart attack .[/size]
[size=6] After the first year I had lost 100 lbs. I wanted to loss 20 more lbs. and get to 140 however my husband, friends and family kept saying I was getting to skinny and I needed to stop were I was. I listened to them because when I look in the mirrow at 160 I still saw 260. The only way I would see 160 is when I get to shopping for clothes and I have to keep going back and getting smaller sizes. I was able to maintain until I had a Hernia issue again. (or so I thought) turned out it was just reflux[font=comic sans ms,cursive][i] (just reflux please, this stuff is terrible)[/i][/font] anyway I had to remove all the fluid out of my band and I still stayed at my wieght for several months. Then I had a accident and injured both ankles. The wieght came back with a vingance (totally my own fault bored eating and the mind set that without fluid I can eat breads and anything else I wanted and I did.) I am back up to 203. I feel like a failure. I felt so good and I got off all the medicines and I wasn't in the dr. office all the time. I was so happy with the results and then I just blow it. [/size]
[size=6] I have been released from the Dr. on my ankles and went and got a fill. I hope to remember everything that I am supose to do and get this wieght back off and keep it off. I had said I would never let myself get back in that shape again. However a week before I got my fill I had been to the Dr. for a yearly check-up and my bloood pressure was up my colestaral was high and etc. what was I thinking and how did I so quickly fall back into my bad habbits?[/size]
[size=6] Update: 10-20-12 I had made it back to 170 now its back to180. but It has been a very rocky road. Every time I get a fill I do great for a short time and then something will come up Like having so much sinus drainage that it messes with my band so I have some of my fluid taken out. I go for a while and more drainage more fluid taken out and then Sinus surgery. Maybe that will help get it all straight. [/size]
[size=6] With all the problems that we deal with I would still do it all over again and the only thing that I might change would be to get a low profile port if I could afford it. I love my band and I truly feel that Dr. John Marsden and the band saved my life not just my physical health but my mental health. [/size]