playboyreject80

I am 31 yrs old. I started gaining weight about 6th grade.  At the time i thought i was FAT becasue all the kids teased me but, it wasnt that I was fat it was that I was maturing faster. I had a thicker frame big chest and a booty but small waist. Kids can be so cruel and harsh. I that summer before 7th grade began starving myself. I did this on and off till 8th grade. I then decided i didnt want to be sick anymore. I couldnt take the headaches and being tired. I went from 145 pounds to 230 by the time I started High School.  I was picked on even worse by all the older kids. I  would hear ooompa loompa, penguin. mooo, and the famous FAT word.  That summer before my sophmore year it started again, I was starving myself.  This once again went on from the time i was 16 till I was 27.  My lowest weight was about 165 but. people thought i was 125-130. My highest was 330. I then managed to maintain about 170 at age 27 for about a year, then i got preggers and had a miscariage at 15 weeks. I became emontionally mentally depressed. I ballooned up to 350. I stayed this for years. I about year went to the doctors to get weighed and I was 377 i wanted to crawl in a hole. I then decided I needed to do something. I researched heavily for about 6months and decided on banding. When I had my surgery I was 394 eeeks Lord please help me. I am putting my faith in God and myself to get through this long and disiplined journey.