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I follow the diet to a T, as it is habit now.......its nothing i am doing wrong......and my Dr agrees.....my body just rejects the foreign object! I follow a strict 1200 calorie a day diet with no red meat, no sugars or white flours, no carbs.....and now have to live with the constant reflux, vomiting, and sliming...which by the way, can cause esophagal cancer! and i have no fluid in my band.....not gaining, but no loss either......sorry, but it isnt for everybody.....

I'm so down in the dumps. I feel so discouraged right now. I was banded 1.27.10 and lost about 65lbs since then. In November of 2011 i was having serious issues with the band, throwing up everything including Water. My doctor got worried and took the maturity of the Fluid out of my band. He sent me for testing, no slippage, just a lot of reflux. I haven't been back there yet to find out what the next step is. And I gained about 25lbs back since. I feel like a failure.
I hate being fat. I feel like I failed at the one thing that make me not fat. Ugh. Anyone else go through this?
Thanks,
Alicia