samantha209

i have had rice with sushi but not alone...i have had bread but small portions...

lol

my scars are raised in some incision sites (i had 6) and not others....i am not really sweating it because they are thin...some ppl say mederma works but I am not sure...

thx for the sense of humor guys

thanks again guys for the encouraging words. i deleted him off my blackberry, facebook everything. I know it may be harsh but necessary....lots of sprkng cleaning in my life right now

thanks Guys....i have always been confident but the last few years relationshipwise etc has done a # on my self esteem. I feel i can only be as confident as was society has shown me...and society isnt kind to the overweigbt as for him no he doesn't work with me but my meltdown occurred at work...

i hate it but when you overeat it is the BEST feeling omg....lol

So the other day i was fresh out the shower and getting ready and I looked in the mirror and realized that I could see my lady parts my stomach wasnt completely covering it omg...what joy...still a ways to go but it felt great! dont mind me

Hey guys I had a breaking point at work on Friday. I was in the bathroom crying. I think I'm just frustrated with these guys. They think its flattering that all of a sudden they're paying me enormous amounts of attention but they have no clue. This guy I've know for a few years had been texting me all week being suggestive & sexual and I've been blowing him off. So Friday morning he starts again and I shut him down. I'm like didn't u try to get with my cousin. And he's apologizing and saying he's just joking and flirting etc. But he's never been like that before. So obviously its because I'm losing weight. And he goes on to say how he really liked my cousin etc. And that was like a knife in my heart. Like oh he likes my cousin but I'm only good enough for sexual advances. So that upset me. Oddly enough I don't even like him like that but it was still extremely hurtful. I know there is more of this to come. I am ok now. Just had to get that off my chest. Men are so shallow. Its like even with everything I have to offer I'm second best. Frustrating. Then I tell my mom, and she goes on to say well the reality is men dont like "fat girls" and although there are a few who like plus sized girls most dont. Then she says "why should they pick a fat girl when there are appealing alternatives". This convo was over the phone and she doesn't know that she made me cry...but that hurt....I know ppl are shallow especially towards fat ppl but the reaction is showing me the reality i ignored for years

I had surgery 3 mos ago and honestly I haven't shopped yet i bought one item which is the jeans i have on in my profile pic....the good thing is I had a lot of clothes that were tight so they're fitting now...a lot of my clothes are big but I also dont want to spend unnecessary money...especially for work clothes...i will shop for functions...

Throwing up is very weird to me...I have done it 3 times since surgery. There are times I eat a lot (or what I think is a lot) and not thrown up and there are times i feel i eat less and i do. I think it has a lot to do with the density of the food eaten etc For example the 3 times i have thrown up 2 of those times i ate salmon and the third time i had chicken breast and brocolli where as if it is a soft food i can eat a lot more...hope this helps

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never have and dont regret it. Yes i miss certain things at times but the benefits far outweigh any annoyances

great post...i'm trying not to rush things. I am about 80 lbs down....35 since surgery and feel the best i have in yrs. Cant complain. Gonna keep working my sleeve. i will get there!

Happy Birthday! i agree with everyone. Once in awhile isnt that bad. it's life.

Queens here. Sleeved @ Bellevue by Drs Parikh and Saunders.

i've never been but ironically a friend suggested it for our friend's bridal shower that we're doing in October. I'd heard of it but the menu was a concern to me. But it's a few months off and it will be for brunch.

definitely is easier to hold it now that i have lost weight...i didnt have incontinence per se...but when I had to go i had a hard time holding it for long

Thats true Miss Diva....I have always lost weight counting calories in the past with Weight Watchers for example. Even if I ate "bad foods" but stayed within the calorie constraints, I lost weight Not to say that is the way to do it, and balance is definitely key. But there definitely isnt only one way. Its cool to know what works for different people though

Thanks again for all the words of encouragement.

Thats good to know. Thanks

i really am beginning to think so...everyone's body is truly different

lmaooo at 1000 cals in m&ms Lil Miss Diva. I get you. It's definitely a lot of experimentation and trial and error. I just find that i am stalling like every two weeks or so. Maybe I should stick with what I've been doing and stop looking for a quick fix.

Congrats!!

He definitely said I need to up my exercise. I dont think he meant neglect protein, but just not to worry about restricting carbs. For instance I love oatmeal and chobani greek yogurts but i dont eat those cuz of the carbs...i am gonna try those for the next week and see what happens...lol