After a year of waiting I got the call --a reminder for my pre-op visit on monday then surgery scheduled June 1st!!

I thought it was July.

I had been having second thoughts since I had lost 50 lbs since september dieting & excersising--thinking maybe this time I will do it all the way and not need the surgery?

Though I have hit a platuea since december!

Sometimes I think I am giving up on God's work on me by getting the surgery.. Seems like giving up on faith and discipline, grace and prayer etc. I am not worried about the procedure, I am not worried about recovery, I am not worried about following the rigorous program---this due to the excellent program at the hospital. I struggle the most with feelings that I am giving up on what God is trying to change in my character.

But at the same time--I have been struggling with this problem as a christian for 23 years. Done it all---OA, First Place, Grace Shamblins study--and have even lead groups in all 3.

Not to mention the weight watchers, nutrisystems, atkins etc.

Like the word says--"If your eye causes you to sin, gouge out your eye"

In this case fourtunately I will simply be getting a band installed and following a tough regime????----better than cutting out the stomach. Not that the aforementioned verse is to be taken litterally.

any thoughts?

Wow - that is some heavy stuff you are putting yourself through. First I want you to think a bit differently, this does not have to do with willpower or discipline, it has to do with obesity which is a disease and often is caused by many more factors than overeating. It runs in families, there are chemicals and hormones involved that make it impossible for 95% of the people who lose with diet and exercise to keep it off long term, I have lost over 100lbs 3 different times... If you had cancer would you think that the treatment was an easy out or out of gods plan. I totally understand your reluctance, I have been there in making this decision, but I am having my surgery on the 218th and I consider it a gift from god that I will finally have a tool that will allow me to be successful once and for all. Congrats on your weight loss so far, but I consider my health and being healthier as the result of weight loss part of gods plan regardless of how I do it, I believe He has wanted me to be a thin person all along and I am now being given the gift of a tool to help me do just that.

Good luck.