OK OK So i'll admit before I post this that I am NOT taking my own advice today So Shoot me LOL Im really down today and have been for about a week . So dont say " take your own advice " cause I KNOW I need to but ...

So here i am about 30 pds to goal . After my total unfill and my 10 pd GAIN I basically was set back 2 months . I had my fill about 2 weeks ago . My first fill since being totally unfilled.

I do not think its given me any restriction . Which does not make a whole lot of sense to me since i had restriction w/ my FIRST fill ever w/ the band . But what ever . I guess it might be different after you have had the band for a while ?

So Im going to wait another week or so and try to see what happens w/ this fill . Typically my fills have kicked in by now . By a week out they I either have it or I dont , and I always have it .

I have never NOT had restriction from a fill .

I feel like im eating all the time, I cant afford to gain anymore weight. For ONE If i go up a size I HAVE NO CLOTHES !! I give all my clothes away as soon as Im out of that size.

Im a bit frustrated I wanted to be at goal by September . More frustrated that the weight is CREEPING OFF NOW more so than ever. I know i dont follow my own advice or im not feeling that way now .

I feel like on the few message boards im on that i dont get a lot of support when it comes to NOT losing weight. I feel like people think " YEAH Shut up bitch and stop whining , what do you have to complain about you have already lost 100 pds in a yr " So I dont feel I get much understanding now that I am not losing . Its not different than anyone else that is not losing or losing slowly . I am so close to my goal. w/ my PCOS I almost wonder if my body wont say " SORRY This is enough " You dont get anymore "

That's my pitty party for today .

thanks for listening I had to get it out . !!

Hey girlfriend!! Don't feel bad about wanting and needing support. Those who will make a snap judgement of your situation should walk a mile in your shoes. Of course you want to keep loosing, you are almost there. And just because you've lost 100 pounds doesn't mean it's not damn hard to get the rest off. It's okay to feel the way you are feeling, but you should look how far you've come as well. Weight loss is a journey. It's one day at a time. Don't feel bad because you've had a set back, just get back on the proverbial horse. What I don't want to see you do is sabotage yourself because you are feeling bad and/or guilty. Don't do that to yourself, you've worked too hard.

And as for your fill, of course the first one didn't give you any restriction. You've lost 100 pounds!!! You've lost all the visceral fat around your organs so it makes sense that it will take a little longer to feel it. It's okay, you are getting back on track. Take a minute to take a breath and see how far you've come. I'm not at anywhere near goal at the moment, but pre-band I lost the same 85 pounds....TWICE! Sheesh. I know how you feel believe me and I'm here for you. Feel free to e-mail me if you feel you need support or a good kick in the pants!!! :biggrin2:

It's gonna be fine. You've done so great. Just keep doin' it! I hope you feel better.

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And as for your fill, of course the first one didn't give you any restriction. You've lost 100 pounds!!! You've lost all the visceral fat around your organs so it makes sense that it will take a little longer to feel it. It's okay, you are getting back on track. Take a minute to take a breath and see how far you've come. I'm not at anywhere near goal at the moment, but pre-band I lost the same 85 pounds....TWICE! Sheesh. I know how you feel believe me and I'm here for you. Feel free to e-mail me if you feel you need support or a good kick in the pants!!! :biggrin2:

It's gonna be fine. You've done so great. Just keep doin' it! I hope you feel better.

YOU KNOW WHAT THANK YOU !!! I had totally not thought about that !! In my moment of panic I totally had not thought about that . And that is something i TOTALLY would have told someone else But I have been so upset and frustrated I had not even thought about that !!!

I think i probably started to in a small way sabotage myself. eating things i shouldnt . thinking " OH what the hell " I need to stop that.

I normally do not even have CRAP in my house and since the total unfill i went on a "vacation " from my normal banded food and bought that. I am going to stop that

SO THANK YOU for your help it DID HELP !!

Mindy

Anytime my friend! I'm glad I could help. Keep in touch.