Well even though my back is out (12 days now) the Doctors say its all muscle related & even though I am on major pain killers, they say I should go ahead with the surgery & not Postpone. Thank you all for your support over the months & I thank you in advance for all the future support that I will need;0)

I have chickened out about the lower port idea & will go with the standard " Where ever you want it Doc - position "

Scared / nervous /Happy /excited /Is this the right thing to do /am I picking what is best / will I succeed /will I be happy / will I be happy if I don't /am I happy now-yes-kinda-sorta-sometimes / Will I be ok (alive) / will I have complications / will this be the best thing that ever has happened to me - yes(please God)

You all know the routine: My brain is completely swamped with these things. Not to mention the muscle relaxers & Vicadin(spelling) don't do so great on a liquid diet.

So that being said here goes the scarest thing I have ever done:

COUNT DOWN IN

10 DAYS!!!

I'm so excited for you, one more day and you will officially be a bandster. I will keep you in my thoughts and I hope all goes well w/ your surgery, keep us posted.

Well I spoke with my plastic surgeon yesterday & he said has far as TT & C-sections go the HIGHER THE BETTER with the Port Position. So again I have decided for the status quo.

I can believe it tommorow. Thank you all for your support & well wishes!