I am suddenly absolutely terrified. For the last month I have been so excited about this surgery, and so ready to get it done and begin my new life.

Suddenly, now that it's just a month away, I am SO scared. The reason I'm overweight to begin with is because of ME. I have the help of PCOS and Insulin Resistance, but the primary reason for my weight is my bad habits, bad choices, and emotional eating. I know that the band is a TOOL and not a magic wand, and I'm so ready to make the right choices and change my life, but I've made these changes before and I've failed. I'm just so afraid that I'm going to fail.

On top of that, I'm a self-pay, and as we all know, this is a LOT of money. It is money that is totally worth investing in my life, and I have no problem with financing my life away if it means health and happiness. But I also know how much I'll regret spending the money if I fail, and my job feels like it is on rocky ground right now.

I guess I also got a little shaken up by watching 20/20 last night where they talked about the horrible effects of Lipo Dissolve and all those places going out of business. I know this is NOTHING like that, but I ALSO went and got a consultation for that because it sounded like a good idea and I actually put serious thought into it. I realize how ridiculous and dangerous that procedure is now, but it makes me question my judgement and desperation to lose weight. I know that my surgeon is well respected and has a lot of experience, but it makes me nervous that I find very little information about True Results Weight Loss, which is the "brand name" of the company facilitating the surgery.

I've put so much thought into this so it isn't like I'm jumping into it, I'm just second guessing everything now that it's getting closer. I know that I could cancel it if I wanted to, but every person I've talked to has said their only regret is that they didn't do it sooner.

I don't want to put off making this wonderful change...I'm just so scared! It becomes so big and intimidating the closer it gets. Does anyone else feel this way?

Hi everyone, My surgery date is May 1st. Anybody else having it done on the same day? I am so nervous about the whole thing. I am currently living with my parents since my husband died in december. They always have the most wonderful foods, and I will be forced to be around the sights and smells of delicious food constantly. I am worried that I wont be able to resist. I am working on getting a place of my own by the end of summer, but what about the months in between? My Mom is supposed to have gastric bypass by the end of may or early june, so hopefully when she does, the food temptations can be cut way back.

I am currently on my two week pre-op diet and I am dying to go eat the donuts that are sitting on the counter tempting me. (sigh)

I would love to chat with any of you for support.

Valerie

Mississippi Gulf Coast

Band Date May 1, 2008

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You're mom's having gastric by-pass soon? I see this a wonderful time for you both to start supporting each other. This will also help you with your loss. A new beginning for both of you...how exciting!!!!!

I would grab your mom, throw away those doughnuts together, clean out rest of cabinets...grab your purses and go grocery shopping. I wouldn't even make a list, but you two could go and spedn time together just looking at all the new "healthy" stuff that's on the shelves, stock up on the good stuff (things that will last until after surgery)...oh, and get some pampering stuff meaning to include new measuring cups, gas-x strips, stool softeneners, lotions. Make the best time of this to help you BOTH to get started and concentrated on this new walk of life!!!

I send many blessings your way, and welcome to the LB forums!!!!

Thanks so much for your encouragement. I know, my Mom and I should be preparing for this together, but since she is still at least a month out, she is on this "last supper" kind of mentality...I don't know if you have read that thread, but it is so true for her. I would love to have more support, but I have to face the fact that it just isn't going to happen. :tongue_smilie:

However, the good news is that I did not have a single donut off of that counter... I resisted and survived.... YAY ME!!!