I have had 4 fills now and haven't lost a pound. I usually do pretty good on my own with weight watchers (maintaining) and so it feels like before surgery. I know it's a matter of time but the one area I really hoped would be rectified by this surgery was that I would feel better undressing in front of my husband. We haven't had sex in 3 weeks and I miss him. It's sort of I want it/I don't, if anyone can relate. He doesn't say anything and is sweet as pie. When I say that I feel bad, he tells me to stop and that he loves me. God, I thought this would be so in the past.
You see, I went through a period of severe depression last year. It had to do with my lifestyle and my love of God. I was living double-minded. I was still having drinks whenever I wanted and I would over-eat and then there was the bible study time and my walk with the Lord. It just came to a head. I even had to miss some time at work while I processed this change. Well, I put on like 25 pounds. I was still shy about my body at 195 but not nearly as bad as now.
I have had 4 fills and I can feel a slight difference. I'm just having a rough time this weekend feeling guilty and all.
Oh, I also lost my best friend (besides my DH). She was a 20.5 year old feline empath cat named Razzbaby maTazz. She was part human or an angel, I swear. I had to have her put to sleep and as I work evenings, when I go home at night, it's the roughest on me.
I have the best life. My DH is the best thing to happen to me (married 2.5 years). We have a home and aren't hurting for money. We haven't got savings per se but we live comfortably. He was able to pay for my surgery with an inheritance from his mom who passed last year. I am very happy...
...I guess you always have to find a fly in the ointment. I want to be sexy for my husband...I know it's a head problem but...I sure wish I could lose 5 pounds.
I have had 4 fills now and haven't lost a pound. I usually do pretty good on my own with weight watchers (maintaining) and so it feels like before surgery. I know it's a matter of time but the one area I really hoped would be rectified by this surgery was that I would feel better undressing in front of my husband. We haven't had sex in 3 weeks and I miss him. It's sort of I want it/I don't, if anyone can relate. He doesn't say anything and is sweet as pie. When I say that I feel bad, he tells me to stop and that he loves me. God, I thought this would be so in the past.
You see, I went through a period of severe depression last year. It had to do with my lifestyle and my love of God. I was living double-minded. I was still having drinks whenever I wanted and I would over-eat and then there was the bible study time and my walk with the Lord. It just came to a head. I even had to miss some time at work while I processed this change. Well, I put on like 25 pounds. I was still shy about my body at 195 but not nearly as bad as now.
I have had 4 fills and I can feel a slight difference. I'm just having a rough time this weekend feeling guilty and all.
Oh, I also lost my best friend (besides my DH). She was a 20.5 year old feline empath cat named Razzbaby maTazz. She was part human or an angel, I swear. I had to have her put to sleep and as I work evenings, when I go home at night, it's the roughest on me.
I have the best life. My DH is the best thing to happen to me (married 2.5 years). We have a home and aren't hurting for money. We haven't got savings per se but we live comfortably. He was able to pay for my surgery with an inheritance from his mom who passed last year. I am very happy...
...I guess you always have to find a fly in the ointment. I want to be sexy for my husband...I know it's a head problem but...I sure wish I could lose 5 pounds.