This is really weird - I'd appreciate some feedback
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Ok, first of all, sorry for the long post, but this is weird and I need to tell the background to explain it properly.
I just got given my surgery date (12th December, only 2 weeks away!) and am going through the usual emotions - excited, scared, hopeful, terrified... My surgeon told me that, while I did not have to do a 2 week liquid diet, it would be very helpful and would make the surgery less complicated, and then showed me a video of the surgery on someone who had done the fast and another on someone who had not. The differences were very obvious. Also, he told me that while I did not have to give up smoking it would be beneficial and explained the advantages in specific terms of less chance of infection, less chance of nausea after the surgery, etc. He suggested (but did not push) that I at least try to stop for 1 week prior to the surgery, to give my lungs a bit of a chance to rest.
Now I am a committed smoker and, although considerate enough to not smoke around non-smokers, have always been defiant about not giving up and have never tried before. I was dreading the liquid diet phase. I really didn't think I could do either, so I was elated that it seemed I was going to be able to "get away with it", ie without all the hard battles that others have seemed to have gone through. However, I went home and thought about it a lot and came to the conclusion that if I couldn't commit to a simple 2 weeks of not smoking and not stuffing my face, how could I ask myself to commit to a lifetime of living with the band? This would be my final "test" to myself and besides, I rationalised, if I cheated and broke it the doctor was going to go ahead anyway and at least cutting down should help.
So... yesterday I went out and bought a fortnight's worth of nicotine Patches and a box of Opti Fast. I was due to fly back to work in the afternoon (I work on a remote mine site in the far north of Western Australia, but live 3000km south in the state capital, Perth). I finished the last cig in the pack at about 3:00pm and put a patch on and headed to the airport, figuring the first test would be to see if I got off the plane desperate for a cig as usual.
I got off and wasn't desperate, but managed to talk myself into having one anyway, rationalising it as "oh I've already smoked all day and the patch can't be working yet". BIG MISTAKE - I felt dizzy and got head spins and put it out half way through. This morning I put another patch on and have gone all day with only one cig at 10am this morning (its 7pm now) and I really didn't "need" that. WOW - this seems easier than I thought!! Who knew??
Now comes the weird bit...
I couldn't quite bring myself to go the full liquid diet so I thought I would ease into it by having the first day on a mix of Optifast and small servings of soft food. This is what I ate:
Time...Today.............................................Normal day on Site
6:00...Coffee/skim milk/sweeter....................Coffee/skim milk/sweeter
6:30........................................................Cereal/skim milk
8:00...Optifast Vanilla.................................2 slices Fruit toast (no butter when being "good", with butter when being "bad")
10:00..Coffee/skim milk/sweeter....................Coffee/skim milk/sweeter
10:30..Apple..............................................Apple
11:30.......................................................Eat half lunch early coz I'm "starving", large plastic container of sliced salad veges)
12:00..Half cup yoghurt/half cup tinned fruit....Remainder of lunch - bread roll (dry when being "good", with butter & vegemite when being "bad"), cheese & dried apricots
2:00...Coffee/skim milk/sweeter....................Coffee/skim milk/sweeter
2:30....Apple.............................................Small slice of fruit cake (because I'm "starving" again)
3:00........................................................Another small slice of fruit cake (because, you know they are REALLY small!)
3:30.........................................................Go and look at the little packets of 2 biscuits (cookies to you US people) in the kitchen and try desperately to talk myself out of it (sometimes successfully, sometimes not)
4:00...Coffee/skim milk/sweeter....................Coffee/skim milk/sweeter
5:00...Optifast Vanilla.................................................................
6:00 Catch the bus back to camp.
Now normally after a day like this, I would have been thinking about food all day, be "starving" again at dinner time and go straight from the bus to the mess hall and load up my plate with roast meat and gravy and kid myself that I'm still being "good" coz I have lots of steamed veges with it and no chips. By 7:00pm, I'd be stuffed full and my tummy would hurt coz I'd eaten it too fast in a "frenzy of hunger" from "depriving myself" (haha!) all day.
Tonight, however, I had hardly thought about food all day. I wasn't even hungry! I went to my room, did some laundry and then wandered down to the mess. I decided to see if I could "eat like a bandster", and I had a bowl of corn & potato Soup, taking small mouthfuls, chewing each 15-20 times, putting down my spoon and waiting between bites, etc. At the end of the bowl, I was FULL! I couldn't understand it because I "should" have been starving hungry! I decided to test it and got a small portion of steamed fish, 1 small new potato, a small spoon of carrots and small spoon of Beans (about 1/2 my usual portion size). I cut everything really small and did the bandster chew-chew-chew-swallow-wait... trick again and (here's the WEIRD PART), less than half way through this half sized portion, I was so stuffed full I couldn't eat any more!! I mean REALLY REALLY full! I threw away more than half of the meal (and I NEVER throw away food).
What the HELL??? Is it the nicotine patches? Is it the Optifast?? Nothing in the Optifast literature says it comes with an appetite suppressor (and by the way, that stuff is NASTY!!) Is it the eating technique? Ive tried that eating technique before and it's never worked for me. If I thought I could maintain this pattern and not revert to type in 2 weeks, I wouldn't even need this surgery!! Is it fear of the surgery??
Has anyone else had this weird experience?