Six days to surgery and today was a tough milestone. Today was the day all the bills had to be paid. Everyone wants their money up front, which I completely understand. But you feel selfish spending that money on yourself and not your family. I came home a little depressed about it. I know it is an investment in the future but .....ugh

I bet that your family will be very happy to have you healthy and around much longer. So, it really was for them as well

I also stress about that. I really do. Each time I have to put out anything towards a dr or pay a copay I think about what I should be paying or who needs what at home. But I also know that my health is at risk and I am not only doing this for myself but for my family and that puts me at ease....some! lol

For ONCE we have to think of OURSELVES! LOOK at how long we've devoted attention to others!!!! They will be juuuust fine...this is probably why we are where we are. Choose you!!! Choose your life! It feels SOOOOO good! ???????

You are a soul sibling to me and I thank,you for this message. Just right message for me and it comes at the right time. Little things were getting me down. As an example,i have been fighting sinusitis for a month plus. Woke up needing to sneeze and blow my nose. I have no less than 3 tissue boxes, but nary a one is next to my bed where I last put them. So off to the living room I go sniffling all way and calling curses down on the family member who moved everything. I really love my family members, would usually do,everything in my power for them, but at this point , enough is enough and it is "Put ME First" time, lol most of the time, but for 30 seconds I VE HAD IT!
Sunshine and smiles for your day and mine.?