:Banane35::confused:

ok, even now after i took my 'break' and came back ...

i just cant motivate myself to eat right and work out properly. the only thing i am doing 100% is my running and i know i cant do that every day.

i continue to eat garbage and i want to stop (really, i do) but it's like the old me is back saying "ok, Monday, stop eating garbage" or "ok, after your fill you can get your crap together".

its not just eating either. i had a 1/2 training session this morning and barely went thru the motions.

it seems i've even forgot why i was banded in the first place. i know to lose weight ... that's the "duh" part ... but WHY ?? to be healthier? (i am healthier now), to be able to play with DD? (no problem now), to have great ummm relations with DH? (check) ... to fit into 'normal' clothes (got it - 18/20 fits me now *down from 6XL*) ...

i need to make more/new goals i know but i dont know what i want... well i do but one of them is so freaking petty (i want to weigh less than my sister - i dunno how much she weighs but she's going up) ...

***sigh*** i just need the motivation / kick in the pants ??? to see it clearly.

i cant believe i had it and just lost it :Banane10:

Thanks for the motivation, I believe we all get down, that is what is so good about this site, we all need to encourage each other. Just knowing we all have had the same feelings about ourselves, and look at the people that has had all the success. I am sure they went through it all, but there is a goal that we started out to meet, and we will get there, it just takes time.

Just BELIEVE it

Another Consideration Is The Loss Of Your Puppy. It Only Happened This Week, And I Know When I Lost My Dog, I Didn't Care About Losing Weight. I Just Wanted To Feel Better So I Ate. Just Give Yourself Some Time And You Will Be Back And We Won't Be Able To Keep You Down!

Ladydi