The long wait.....

Hi Everyone ,

I am here in need of some encouraging motivational words. I have one more appt on June 20,2017 of my six month insurance required visits. I just did #5 today. I am feeling sooo depressed, like this is just within reach but so far away. (: I have cleared all the hurdles, excrpt the last blood work for pre-op. I am just feeling like this has been a long road and hoping nothing will happen to detour my surgery. I am always a positive person and I am so motivated and ready for the change. I will do anything they tell me to make this a success. Its just such a long time.

Have any of you felt like this? Have you felt like you will never be posting those before and after pics? Are you afraid that you wont lose weight, like maybe all this waiting and it wont bring results?

i know I feel like i am spiraling with all these thoughts. I am just so ready to not be over weight, unhealthy, disabled, walking slow like an old lady, uncomfortable in my clothes, watching youtube videos of before and after and crying my eyes out. Seeing myself as a smaller person until I see a pic and freaking out at how large I am. Watching my 600lb life and seeing these people change their lives, so inspiring and most of all, ,,feeling as though I am the one who maybe wont see but 25lbs come off.....

I think the insurance companies should never make us wait so long. I am 5'1 , 269lbs., hbp, diabetic, with one kidney and lymphedema. I am soooo ready!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for listening to me rant and cry......damn it's a bad day.. .. (: