I'm leaning toward not having the surgery done. Not because I don't want it, but because I don't have any support. I can't even get my patient advocate to return my calls or emails and my insurance company won't talk to me. I'm not sure where to go or what to do next. I guess I'll just move on with my life - or what I have of it.

Hi! My consultation is Thursday and I am so back and forth with this that emotionally it feels easier to just give up. The hard thing for me is not having insurance and being selfpay. It's and extra $500 a month to come up with. Since we own our own buisness I am just going to start working shifts to make up for the extra money but I just have this HUGE feeling of guilt. Like I am being selfish w/Xmas coming, etc... and just selfish period. But I also know that not only will this make me happier....it will make everyone around me happier b/c I can start being me again. It's not like I'm taking money from the kids well being b/c I'm working extra but it just makes me feel bad. They are my heart :cool:

If it's so boring why are you reading it Usetbfat? Could it be you have a personal interest?

Katybeth<p>understand how you are feeling. That is exactly how I felt when my doctor told me ONE WEEK before surgery that I would have to pay the amount insurance wouldn't pay up front. I felt as though I would be taking from my kids. I was told by Coco6399 to "get over myself and pay the man". Sure, easy enough, right?</p>