i got my surgery date and i can't stop freaking out about it. these past 6 months have been like a vacation because it didn't seem real, and now it's real and very scary. I don't know if i'm afraid of ruining everything by making a mistake, or of the process of getting used to it. words of encouragement would be great.

You can do it! I've got one month to go as well, surgery date April 17th! Just follow what your surgeon says and you'll be fine. You have a whole team rooting for you. (That's us!). Good luck