I don't know if I am having second thoughts or not but I keep worrying about the surgery. I am on day 2 of my diet and felt yucky today. But I keep thinking "what am I doing?" I am already grieving the loss of eating what I desire. Grieving the loss of favorite foods already. Keep thinking, I am realitively healthy, why mess with that????

I know it is just presurgery jitters, anyone else go through this?

Ok all I feel better. I have not cancelled! Oct 19 is still the day. I have come to terms that I can not except this to be easy. I have to work hard for this and take the good with the bad.

Hugs Crispy! This is not an easy decision. All I can say is that I had a few doubts going into surgery and even did a last meal WHILE I was on Optifast. It was like I was in a period of mourning for all the food I wouldn't be able to eat after being banded AND that I wouldn't be able to comfortably eat large amounts ever again. So silly that I would miss gulping down a big meal, isn't it? I guess not really but that's what I had convinced myself of before surgery.

I am not just over a week out from surgery and it is so much easier being able to accept this new lifestyle being on the other side. It is often the fear of the unknown that get's to us. Right now, I am just enjoying the rewards of eatting small amounts and am fascinated that I am able to be satisfied in doing so. Plus, I now get to reap the rewards of doing this by losing weight.

For me, it has been easier after the surgery as opposed to before. I am looking forward to Christmas being a slimmer me. I am looking forward to next February when I go away to Jamaica because I know I will feel better and look better when I am sitting on the beach in a bathing suit. I am looking forward to spring when all the new summer clothes are out because I will be able to buy them and feel and look good! It is these things that motivate me now.:whoo:

Thanks for responding. I too am looking forward to Christmas. I feel so much stronger today. I think I have turned a new leaf. Does that make sense. lol My boss actually asked me to postpone it as it is going to be quite busy. I quickly said NO that this was approved a while back, and came to an agreement I will work weekends and nights to make sure I don't leave everyone stranded while I am away. I took 1 week off. Do you think that is enough time. Do you think i will be ok going to work after the first week?

Check with your doctor, but I would just stay away from any lifting until you heal and are back on solids. Some people have a bit of a problem with gas, if you walk and cough and follow the doctors advice, you will come to the "other side" in good health. Doddie