2 more days until sleeve

[iloveme_vgs 4]

Taking control ready to find me again!!! My story...After giving birth to my 2nd child I put on weight reaching 254 at my highest weight. Along came my chronic back pains, depression and post partum depression.. I decided to go with the lap band I was banded in February 2009. Things were going smooth I was dieting and exercising I got to about 180 and was looking and feeling great. I didn't have much restrictions or complications but I couldn't eat hot dogs and I couldn't eat reheated meats.. I started to notice I'd also get the "stuck" feeling , it hurt. I'd throw up a lot and had to have relieve myself asap or I'd feel like I was going to die. As time went on and after a few adjustments and some tests my band had slipped. I had put the weight back on and was set up and re banded in March 2011 along with a hernia repair and the removal of my gall bladder. The 2nd time around things were slower with my weight loss I was really discouraged. The weight finally started to come back off right when I got pregnant with my 3rd child in March 2013. I had a healthy pregnancy and was actually loosing some weight I was in the 190's I got to 220 by the end of my pregnancy my band was still full and in place I might of had just 1 adjustment. Even though I gained it was almost all pregnancy weight. After I gave birth I fit back into my clothes and was like finally my band worked!! Unfortunately after really bad post partum depression and regular depression I started to regain weight and my energy level was extremely.. I just wasn't where I wanted to be in life for me. I couldn't take it no more. I wanted my normal "thick" but not plus size body back. I missed feeling energized and good about myself. I started looking into something else I was determined... In order for the insurance to reconsider I had to gain more weight to get approved for a revision or other wls surgery. I jumped through all the hoops and did all my tests went to all my appointments regained the weight and now I'm finally here again August 2015 on day 3 of my liquid diet. I had to decide between the bypass and the sleeve and I never wanted to go through the bypass I didn't want the skin. I felt I wasn't that big. After looking through you tube videos and talking to people and just all over the place researching. I decided to go with VGS. Yes I'm afraid of the loose skin ,loosing what i have left of my boobs, and my big booty that I've always had.. But the thought of having more energy and wanting to socialize again and knowing that I can and will be happier and healthier I'm willing to take the risk . My concern is, like any surgery ,is being put under I have 3 kids who need me and I question is this all worth it if my kids loose me?? being that the Doctor told me that this surgery is more risky being that its my 3rd wls and my 4th to my abdomen I could have lots of scar tissue from before so that makes it harder for the surgeon and riskier for me. I know I shouldn't think so negative and think that I'm doing this for them how great it'll be to have a healthier happier mom. So with that being said. I'm currently on day 3 of my 4 day liquid diet. Last weight at pre op appointment 8/20/15 was 251.. I started Saturday the 22nd and today I woke up feeling weak with a headache. Todays weight 243..I have to really try to get some Protein into me maybe that will help.. I call tomorrow for my exact surgery time but from my understanding I'll be the first case of the day and the doctor put me in a longer time spot. I bought my new scale yesterday (my new best friend) I'm excited and can't wait to see my journey through... I get sleeved August 26, 2015... I want my life back! #HappyHealthyMe #iwantmySEXYback #funmom #happywife #happylife

[bhopeful 33]

Awesome... all the best. I am hoping to have the surgery in November :-)