I am having so many different emotions lately. In a week I meet with my dietician the in September I'll take my last class which is surgery prep, hospital time & post op. After that class I will schedule with the surgeon. If he gives the all clear then everything will be sent to my insurance then we wait if approved schedule surgery. All of that has been going through my head. I've done the omg omg os this real...I look at non plus size & I wanna be excited but instead I wanna cry. Is anyone else a ball of emotions?

I had the surgery primarily because of medical issues. All these problems such as diabetes and high blood pressure have been building up over the years and now my body was starting to break down. The surgery threw all these conditions into remission. Just like that! Within days! So I was overjoyed. The added benefits were I lost 115 pounds and kept it off. I had more stamina (the ability to perform physical labor). And I could once again go to a normal department store and buy the latest fashions.

I guess I am not a ball of emotions. Probably quite the opposite! I let logic rule!

It's so normal! I was feeling the same way throughout my 6 mths of this process up untile the day of surgery. I told my partner so many times... "Am I doing the right thing?" Turns out so far I did. I am two weeks out and lost 20 lbs so far (40 since jan). I'm finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

Just keep going!

You wouldn't be true to yourself if you weren't feeling this way. I'm nearly a week post op and I still feel this way. Every step of the journey is a learning process, and that's exciting and scary at the same time. Perfectly normal.

What helps me is to always circle back to how I felt when I first initiated the process for wls. And most of all to think about where I would be right now if I hadn't pursued the surgery, and that word comes instantly: miserable.

I have no regrets. And I think you won't either. One day at a time!

Good luck!