"My 600 Pound Life" on TLC is my current guilty pleasure. I think I have watched parts of the show before in the past but now that I am getting ready for my sleeve surgery the show makes much more sense now. I am nowhere near 600 pounds, halfway there so I'm proactively stopping the weight gain madness. I've tried to watch as many episodes as I could find on Netflix and the Internet, I still have not seen any with guys at this point. I did find on Netflix, "The World's Fattest Man" which was a little disappointing because they dragged out the pre-surgery process to the very end and basically with only a few minutes left he has the surgery. I was thinking were they actually going to show this guy die. Fortunately he survived and he is doing well according to the Internet.

Another show I have found recently was on HBO called "The Weight of the Nation". That show is more geared towards the entire weight loss industry and obesity crisis in America. It's a little long-winded but informative. I find watching these shows are therapeutic and help make this process a little more real as I complete my required steps to surgery.

Man does Penny have a lot of problems...I felt bad for her husband but in the same token he is enabling her...I think he needs to show tough love...its not like she can get up and get her own food....he should have made her eat healthier..I just hope she can get through this with help from professionals...

The Penny episode should be a reminder that this is not easy and we need to be in the correct frame of mind going into this. She was obviously cheating but the cameras did not show it. Early on we see that was given soda bother husband out of a giant Subway cup. There must of been other instances of cheating while filming. What bothered me the most about her was that she was lying to herself and saying how hard she was working for her son. I feel bad for the son when he watches this episode years from now and realize why he lost his mother (if she didn't change her ways).

I have decided to add a shrink to my team for surgery. They have you see a guy once for 20 minutes to confirm you are a good candidate but it couldn't hurt to see one on a regular basis to make sure your entire house is in order, not just your body but also your mind and perhaps for those who believe your spirit.

CubsWin -

Good luck on your date. I remember my last week of what was Normal.

Tonight I saw a bunch of people I have not seen since last June and some did not recognize me. My date was 10/18 and I have lost almost 80 lbs. The weight is coming of very slow right now (1lbs a week), but that is ok. I see my Dr and NUT in a month so I will see what's up then. Obviously Im not worried as it will give my skin a change to tighten up a little.

Good luck, if you have any questions let me know.