Cold feet

I am through with all the insurance requirements and now waiting for insurance approval. I was excited since I started this journey p, however, last night I go reallyt scared. I read several posts that one woman was in a coma for 5 months...and another , her sister passed away..( though it seems her doc did not take too good of after the surgery.

I had not confided with anyone except my husband and a friend who had the gastric sleeve". I had anxiety since I did not tell my daughters and if something goes wrong during or after the surgery or they would be upset that I did not tell them. So I decided to tell my daughters ...one of my daughters was very receptive and was happy that I did not give up on myself. My other daughter told me I should try diet pills...she is a PA and works at a neurologists office. She has met patients with the sleeve. And most lost 50% of their weight. I did tell her I tried phen fen and other diet pills which did not work for me. I feel so much better in sharing my little big secret with my daughters. I feel less pressure since I told them..I was expecting a BIG backlash..but they were understanding and compassionate.

Now for my other concern , since I yo-yoed so many years, I am afraid I will have this major surgery, alter my body, will lose my weight and then gain back..I always lost weight..but once I got to goal I would start gaining. I know this is a phycological issue I have to work on. (BTW, I started seeing a physiologist pre and then post) ..my question is how did we not go back with emotional eating with the sleeve. It would devastate me to go to great lengths to get the sleeve..and then fail..Your comments please.