When I first got the surgery, I wrote this, its a prose poem.... becuase it fits my situation so well, i feel its one of my best works, Just thought Id share it with yall. Hope you enjoy!

My Chrysalis

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I had become quite empty, crawling through the dirt of the world on my belly, like a caterpillar, stuffing myself. Unable to conform to my own skin I molt, shedding each exoskeleton for a larger one. Growing larger, I watch the delicate butterflies float along the sidewalk in shades of pink and purple Abercrombie finally deciding that now is the time for my metamorphosis. <O:p></O:p>

Spinning my pupa, I face the world around me filled with both fear and excitement. As each pound is erased I become incased in my silken cocoon. Staring forward, hypnotized by the dark, inner sanctum that holds me back, I catch myself watching the movie of my life in the mirrors on the street, examining cheekbones and non-gapping blouse buttons, distracted, ignoring that which surrounds me, leaving me nothing to offer the outside world because all my energy is focused toward my inner transition. <O:p></O:p>

Will this protective case will support me as the weight continues to drop or should I break free now and remain a larva, because I might not be strong enough to open my wings and fly.<O:p></O:p>

Stand back! as I begin to crack open this cocoon. Resist the temptation to help me break through, no matter how great it may be, I must do this on my own. This emergence is my personal battle, armed with determination; the struggle builds the strength I need to survive outside my chrysalis. <O:p></O:p>

Despite it all, I cant help but wonder if butterflies identify caterpillars as their past relations or if as I break free and step out of the weight, Ill be the beautiful butterfly or will with the pounds, Ill lose myself.

~Kelly Lynn McDowell~

Oh this is very beautiful. I can so relate to what you wrote but I could not put it in these words. Thanks for sharing your inner thoughts about the start of your journey.

Melissa Lea

Kelly Lynn,

You do nice work lady! Keep on writing them and keep on sharing them.

Thanks,

Jo Ann

That is SOOOO Beautiful...... You are great at expressing yourself.

I feel that fits the way I feel alot of the time.

This journey is a strange one on alot of different levels.

Id love to read more