I am really new to this. But I have been out there battling for over a decade to have weight loss surgery. I am taking the self pay route and I am going for my first appointment on the 9th of August.

I made a commitment to do follow through and make this happen for myself since I fought so hard for so long. But as the day of my appointment gets nearer I feel a little jittery, and afraid.

You should be jittery because it is a big commitment. On the other hand, what other options are there for drastically improving health and quality of life? I am three months out and have never regretted my decision.

Being jittery and afraid is totally normal, no matter how badly you have wanted this. For me, I felt like I jumped through a million hoops for my insuranace company to give approval. I did it willingly because I wanted this so bad. However, the day my approval came and the ball got rolling with all the pre-op appointments, I was suddenly terrified. It was so strange to want something so badly, but to be so scared at the same time. But all went well and now that I have done it, I have never looked back. It was the best decision of my life. Just keep remembering WHY you fought so hard for this for the past ten years and use that to power through your fears. You will do great!