Its Time

I have been lurking around this site since October of last year. I finally got my date! March 19th. I start my liquid diet on Monday and am already anxious. All of a sudden my brain is telling me to eat all kinds of stuff I haven't cared about in months, strange right? I have been waiting so long and didn't think I was going to get it in time. Now I'm a wreck about the bloodwork. I guess I will find something to be stressed about. However, the timing on this couldn't possibly be any better. My husband is recovering from his hip surgery and I actually had already given two weeks to my job. I gave them the final day of the 15th a week ago and got the call yesterday. Thats not why I did it, like I said, timing couldn't be better. I can't bring myself to pray that I get my surgery in time. I really want to, but I don't want to use God for a cosmic slot machine. The most I have managed to pray for is that I have the strength to handle whatever comes my way. I am sure I will be praying for my life pre-op. I already am starting with the strange dreams too. lol. This is the beginning of an hugely changing, interesting year!