Hi,

I hesitate to write this. I am a pretty straight forward ex-New Yorker, very "I can do this myself", "I don't need any help" take charge, research nut, control freak. I don't really like to ask for help. Kind of ticks me off. If anyone has noticed at all, my posts are pretty non-mushy and they end up sounding a tad sarcastic/funny which I don't mean in a bad way.

I pretty much am a foxhole religious person. I pray under duress, don't go to church (a lapsed Catholic) and I know God is there. I just don't like to bother Him too much if its not serious.

Ok, now thats out of the way-

I'm having a colonoscopy tomorrow due to some pretty scary bleeding from the rectum (how attractive). It has been going on for a few months on and off. No rhyme or reason-no way to track it. Sometimes its almost like having a period in my butt (another attractive thought).

I have had a colonoscopy 5 years ago just as a base (I am 51). It was fine. I had a sigmoidoscopy (only goes up your bumm part way) 2 weeks ago for this bleeding thing. The doc didn't see anything. I (and the doc) was hoping that it would show hemrrhoids but nope.

So... I am a little worried. Being obese I have had the most terrible diet to get me this way. Fat, no veggies hardly, carbs.

It is not way out of the realm of reality that I could have the beginnings of colon cancer.

The other thing that is crazy about me is that when something good happens (like me finally taking the step to be banded and lose this weight)-something bad will happen in return. Oh the irony-

So with that looonnnnggg story- I have read your posts and I see that a lot of you are more grounded spiritually than I.

Can I beg your indulgance and ask for some prayers for tomorrow??

Thank you all very kindly

You guys are awesome. I get to see this other doc for the

diverticuli-aye yi yi. But for now I am happy not have anything worse. Thank you all from the "bottom" of my heart!!!!!!

Glad you got good news Diva! Sorry I didn't see this sooner.