This morning I was 194 (up 2 pounds from last week), this is the first time since by band that I have had a weight gain. The scale has been stuck, not moved went down ¼ of a pound but at my offical Friday weigh in I never was more that the previouse week.

I have had a few diviations from my “diet” the past week and am not as regular as I should be so I know it’s not a real weight gain but still I am disgusted. My brain understands all of the above but the scared part of my that worries that I will fail the band is stomping around saying I told you so ..why bother with all the pain, expense to just gain the weight back

go eat something to make you feel better….i won’t listen to her I had Cereal for Breakfast, cup of vegatable Soup for lucnch and some nuts a little while ago as a afternoon snack….will have a normal dinner and try ti shut up the voices in my head……wonder if my screwed up relationship with food will ever be “normal”

I've posted this before but seems appropriate here. This is a comment from a bandster that I lifted somewhere and don't recall his name:

" In my case, the most fearful thing I had to do in order to succeed with my band wasn't switching to skim milk, surviving a liquid diet, or giving up bread. The most fearful thing was giving up my emotional attachment to food. In the nearly 5 years since I was banded, I've made a lot of progress with that, but the attachment is still there. It forms one of the innermost layers of my turtle shell. Working on that layer will probably be a lifetime job for me. At times I'm not even sure I truly want to get rid of it altogether. At times I'm afraid that if I shed my shell completely, I won't be able to survive. On the other hand, I seem to be doing fine without that thick old b***h layer. So I'm going to pay attention to my dreams rather than my fears and pray for a miracle. And why not? It can't hurt to try!"

Don';t fret the little 2 lb weekly or even daily bumps. It's most likely just your body retaining fluids. I can gain 4 lbs in one day if I eat too many carbs or sodium. It eventually comes off so no need to be concerned.

tmf

The further out you get, the easier it is for bad habits to creep back. But te really important thing is to keep getting back on that damn wagon. At seven years out I am so used to my band that it feels like its doing nothing, but I realize the deviations are my choice and no fault of the band. I suck at dieting, I seem to have a splurge day very third day ately. But because I don't give up and because I m a very regular exerciser, I don't often gain and if I do, it's only a little and it's gone in a day or two.

Just keep doing what you know you should and don't bet yourself up for the odd indiscretion.