I know this is a LapBand board but I have one so I count. I am seeking someone else who has clinical depression to be able to talk to and check on and help each other throught this. Really not someone who is depressed because of the weight or slow weight loss. But real depression that last for years that you are struggling through. Not that one type of depression is worst than another.

I am on meds and done my fair share of counseling (3 years). I can find joy in my immediate family I have some support. But depression scares people away. I have lost 84 lbs but it did not fix my depression which I knew it would not they are 2 separate things that do sometimes overlap each other.

I am Christian and believe in prayer and healing but until that happens I need more help to keep going. I perfer to talk to another Christain so we will have the same morals and beliefs. Because our belief in God's commandments, teachings and etc. Without my realtionship with God I would have been long gone

If you have no time for this then thanks for thinking of me, but I am looking someone who knows what I mean and needs the same thing. I am pretty much through losing but you do not have to be I do not care what stage you are in.

This last week is the first time I ever thought about wanting to really died I need a buddy willing to talk, email, texts whatever.

I need someone who wants to go long term. Don't be sorry as I have been through this for many years but it is worse during the holidays. I posted this on the Christan bansters thread as that is what i am looking for.

If someone see this and can not help say a prayer for the renewing of my mind. Thanks

Cheri

Hi, I don't have a lapband yet. I am currently weighing my options and researching getting one right now. I decided to join this forum just to specifically offer a listening ear for you and words of encouragement. I too struggle with depression and have for as long as I can remember. I have tried some anti-depressants but have never found any that work for me. Prayer and reading my bible help and if it weren't for faith, I probably would have succumbed long ago, He gives me strength, He is good. It would help me as well to have someone to talk to. So, I thought I would reach out. God Bless.

Sending you a private message

Thank you for answering my post about depression. So sorry you have to go through this too. It is horrible. I have my good days and bad days I do take wellbutrim and t does take the edge off.

I am lke you without my faith that there is a living God who loves and cares about me that I can talk to everyday I would not get out of bed.

I have had my Band 2+ years and the Band helped with the weight but not the depression. The weight is not the cause of the depression but a side affect of the depression. But my husband and I agreed the depression is not something I can cure myself but the depression and the weght were too much for me.

I was 251 and am now 169 a tight size 18 to a loose size 10, so that does make me feel better. I am still believeing God will not make me live the rest of my life living like this. I am waiting for healing, I know He can and I want it.

So you are thinking about the Band? It Is a good thing. I might would have done the Bypass but I was self pay and could not afford it. But now I am glad I went with the Band. With the Bypass I could have lost even more weight but too many risks. I have really had no problems with the band, too tight twice but no biggie they just take some out and I do throw up but always have and no slip or problem.

I have been married for 31 years to a wonderful supportive man and have a great son and a wonderful daughter-in-law and the most beautiful grandbabies Olivia 5 and Isabella 2 both blond hair and blue eye and both left handed like my son. They all are the joy I have in this world. I fear my depression will ruin their lives too. I spend a lot of time faking happiness as to not ruin their time. But it is hard sometimes. But I would never want to cause my grandbabies any unhappiness or set a bad example. The oldest one Olivia does know that grandma does get sad sometimes but that it is okay.

She is more concerned about my Band, she tells everyone, people in the store, or when we are out to eat everyone, does not bother me. She thinks she can feel the band because she can feel the port really easy. (it is by bra line). She always ask me if I am going to eat something “Is that healthly grandma”. She is so funny.

So you see I have a wonderful family my husband and I made, but really no relationship with my family. They are all into drugs and drinking which I do not do. My daddy died when I was 10 and my brother who also suffered from depression overdose last Christmas on prescription drugs, his and someone elses. It was a terrible death he would have never wanted people to see him like that in a coma on life support for 2 days it was terrible but he was one of the saddest people I have ever known but would not accept help. I have been throught 3 years of counseling and learned a lot of coping skills and that I have probably been depressed my whole life but was too busy being a mom to care about myself and kept it all inside. When my son married I kinda lost my identity and it opened the door for the depression to surface.

I am gonna stop writing now as I have written a book, more than you wanted to know I am sure. So sorry it took me a few days to answer you but like I said I have my good days and bad days.

Cheri