I just had to share b/c I got caught off gaurd, and maybe ya'll can relate.

Went in yesterday for my 4th fill (banded Aug 16). I'm down 51 lbs since starting weight about Aug 2nd. So, I really wasn't sure if i was going to need one, feels like i'm pretty close to green.

So, everytime I've went in, every 4 weeks I've lost about 12 lbs. Well, I knew it wasn't as good this time (Halloween candy from the office, menu testing for my restaurant, etc...I had a few hurdles this month). So, she told me I was down 9 lbs over the past 4 weeks.

After talking to the Doc a little, i told her I would feel guilty if I got a fill, b/c i just wasn't really sure if i needed it or if i was just being selfish for not losing as much as i had b4. She starts telling me i am doing great, and not to be so hard on myself, I will always have hurdles...blah, blah...I do realize this, I do. But then I started talking about me being scared that once i eat say a piece of candy, i'm the type of person that just wants to keep eating it, and just how scared i am about going back to the way I was...I don't want to be FAT anymore!!! I started crying!!!

What the hell??? I was shocked!! I didn't know i was really having any of those feelings. Lol, of course I started laughing and apologizing! The doc said I had no idea how many people are always crying in her office!!! I'm just not normally that type of person.

Anyway, we settled on a .2 cc fill, she felt good about doing that (half of what i got last time) after talking a little bit. I don't go back until 8 weeks now...I'll cross my fingers!!

She gave me a big hug when I left and called me a "crybaby". We laughed b/c she knows i am as sarcastic as her, and i know she cares about me. So, I guess all in all, it was a good day.

Edited November 17, 201015 yr by YUMMYTUMMY

What a great doctor you have!

It's wonderful when someone "gets" what we're feeling. I haven't cried at the office, but I totally get how you feel. I'm always afraid that I could gain back my weight. I lost 140 lbs once and gained back every pound and 20 more. I just can't go through that again.

Aw hell, you're making me cry!!! Go ahead and cry. It's the best thing for you. I think we all spend too much time ignoring how we feel.

Cindy

big hug!!!

Thanks ladies! I know only you all on this site can relate to those feelings...even though i try and not show them in public! lol

And yes, I should have clarified...it wasn't actually my doc (even though i really like him too) it was the nurse practitioner that sees me for my fills. She is banded too, so she totally relates...luv her!!!