Mental doubts

Hello all,

I started gaining weight at 20 y.o., and have been struggling with my weight for the last 16 years. EVERY DAY for the last 16 years, I think about weight, am unhappy with myself, am unhappy in my relationship, constantly compare myself to others, am always self conscious about myself, how I walk, etc. I have followed low carb diets and have lost as much as 84 pounds, and was very happy, but as soon as I stop the diet, the weight comes back very quickly. So, I am thinking about doing lap-band to solve the problem once and for all. I am not scared of surgery, and really do want to be free from thinking about my weight all the time.

What I do worry about is mentally being able to handle the food restrictions and not being able to eat what I want. (One of my problems is that my husband LOVES to eat, thinks about eating constantly, can be in the middle of eating Breakfast and is already thinking about dinner. He has been thin almost the whole time we have been together, but has started to gain weight since he retired from the Navy 3 years ago.) Sometimes I get to the point now that I don't ever want to eat again, and I'm hoping that once I get banded that food will no longer be a central focus in my life, so I really won't have the mental struggles I am worried about. I would love to hear from anyone who has gone through the surgery, and how you adjusted mentally.

Thank you!