Hello Rita, and congrats on the first fill. I was banded on June 21st. I went for my 2 week check up with my dr yesterday. I have lost 21 pounds since day of Surgery. I have been walking 2 mile a day and feeling really good. I am on my soft foods and I have no hunger at all. I am consuming 2 to 3 protien shakes a day and eating Oatmeal for breakfast and trying different foods each day. I know what you mean when you say you feel alone in the world. Sad to say that many in the world are focused on food. I guess it is the only satisfaction people get. This is a good place to vent.
Try to not isolate yourself. Endorphines are produced by several ways. So get out get moving and try to stay positive. The secret to really living is to encourage yourself. Good luck and hang in there.