Skip to content
View in the app

A better way to browse. Learn more.
BariatricPal

A full-screen app on your home screen with push notifications, badges and more.

To install this app on iOS and iPadOS
  1. Tap the Share icon in Safari
  2. Scroll the menu and tap Add to Home Screen.
  3. Tap Add in the top-right corner.
To install this app on Android
  1. Tap the 3-dot menu (⋮) in the top-right corner of the browser.
  2. Tap Add to Home screen or Install app.
  3. Confirm by tapping Install.

  • Appearance

Join BariatricPal free

  • Ask your own questions
  • Reply and follow topics
  • Message other members
  • No cost, no spam
Create free account

mauraclegg

LAP-BAND Patients

  • Joined

  • Last visited

View Profile Find content

Blog Entries posted by mauraclegg

  1. Losing Or Is It Winning

    · mauraclegg · 06/05/2012 10:18

    Okay, I am going to say it. The weight loss was relatively easy for me. I hate to say it because I've read about and know personally people that have struggles after their band. I lost 85 lbs within the first year with 3 fills.
     
    Now that you hate me for saying it was easy let me explain WHY I think it was easier for me. WHen I was allowed mushy food I tried out all the yummy carbs that I was missing (rice, pastina, mashed taters). I couldn't tolerate the rice so I eliminated it from my life (not my family's but mine). I never minded making the husband and kids something and having something different myself.
     
    I think that my losing was easy because I changed my mind set. I gave myself about a cup of food and convinced myself I was full. It has worked for me.
     
    That being said, I still need to have a little sweet when I am done eating (a Dove Promise or 2) and I think the fact that through all my fills I have been able to eat popcorn has been my saving grace. I love popcorn!! It's a perfect snack for me.
     
    I still have some food struggles - I still want to eat french fries and they really don't work with my band (maybe 2 or 3), but then I get a bit stuck.
     
    If I eat too fast, or I talk when I am eating I tend to stick and vomit.
     
    But I stand by my saying that my weight loss was easy. I barely exercised - bad I know - but it's the truth.
     
    I love what my band has allowed me to do for me, but I think the mental part of seeing yourself different has been the hardest part for me - I still see a fat chick in the mirror (I'm between a size 8 and 10). I don't want to be a size 2, but when I look in the magazines at people who are my height and weigh 115/120 lbs I am convinced I am still as big as a house.
     
    I think part of my blog is so I can get more of these negative feelings out there into the universe and maybe, just maybe I can see me the way others see me

  2. First Entry - Backround

    · mauraclegg · 06/04/2012 01:38

    Well, if I am starting a blog to hold myself a little more responsible then I guess I should start with a bit about my journey thus far:
     
    I was banded June 8, 2010 and June 9, 2010 by the most wonderful surgeon, Dr. Nahmias here in CT. Yes, my band immediately slipped and I had to have a second surgery, but really it wasn't all that bad. The worst part was the NG Tube before the second surgery - I swear I could have punched the nurse tech who did it square in the face it hurt so damn bad. But after I woke from my second banding I felt like a million dollars and I didn't look back from there
     
    I started about 262 lbs and by I lost my 100 lbs within 15 months, although the last 10 were as a result of my TT. But I am relatively happy with my size 10 bod.
     
    I will say though I have HUGE body image problems. I think I look worse now than I did before. I don't see (somehow) that I look smaller. It's insane, but it's true. I have gone from a size 22 and a 44DDD to a size 10 and a 36DD and when I look in a mirror I see no improvement. I know it's all mental, and I am working on it, but it's HARD!!
     
    My TT was uneventful, except for the hospital not being able to give me any ICE.. freakin crazy.
     
    My JP Drains were removed within a week - I did have 2 small probs after - some fluid that had to be manually drained by my doc every week for about a month; and a small wound right above my pubic bone (smaller than a dime) that had to be chemically debrided - but it did eventually close (icky scar).
     
    Lately I am maintaining my 96-100 lb weight loss - but I am occasionally bored with my food choices and I do push the envelope at times. I rarely vomit - only if I am talking when I am eating or I eat too fast or something I really shouldn't (more than 3 french fies)
     
    I have to say my journey has been pretty easy - I lost my weight with minimum exercise which has led me to not want to exercise. I have been trying to walk again though.....
  3. Okay, I have a horrible body image. I still look at the plus sized clothes when I need something new, WHen I shop online I am drawn to plus size thing. My t-shirts are still XX and above; my sweatpants I still by XL. I just can't see the new me. It doesn't make me eat more, I don't want to be that size again.....
     
    .....yet, I can reconcile what I look like to the world to what I look like to me in the mirror. I have tried tucking shirts in; wearing tighter clothes, telling myself I look good - all to no avail. I just can't see it.
     
    Now it's been 2 years... I don't have a better grasp on self-image than I did before. I will tell you though that I felt I looked pretty good before (until I saw the pics). Now I think I look BAD, even in pics.... lol
     
    I am a hot mess

Account

Navigation

Search

Search

Configure browser push notifications
Chrome (Android)
  1. Tap the lock icon next to the address bar.
  2. Tap Permissions → Notifications.
  3. Adjust your preference.
Chrome (Desktop)
  1. Click the padlock icon in the address bar.
  2. Select Site settings.
  3. Find Notifications and adjust your preference.