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LAN2K, thank you so much for this. You have no idea how much your workds mean to me. I am going to let these words resonate through my heart. I willtrust in God and I will be victorious.

Tina, those were exactly my feelings going in. I still feel that having wls will make me a better happier mom. My baby girl deserves an active mom. Your op is Firday?!? WOW Good luck. I will have you and your family in my prayers. I cant wait to hear about your experience.

Thank you you blaqk! I am trying my best to have positve thoughts. I really do know this is not the easy way out but my mind is working overtime nowadays. I cant wait to just get this over with!

Thank you Tiffy! you always know what to say. My daughter knows what mommy is doing and she is very excited. She said that she will like me better if I am skinny like her (she just turned 5). it doesnt sound like a nice thing to say to someone, but I know what she meant. I had to explain to her that the result will not be immediate after mommy comes home from the doctor, rather it will take some time for me to get 'skinny like her'. she just stared at me blankly. Kids.....

tracey, i agree that obesity is a horrible example for our children. that was also one of my reasons for electing to have wls. i also want to have more children some day and the is not likely with me being this fat. thanks for the encouragement.

LyndaRN, thanks for replying! i am so glad i am not alone in haing last minute jitters. realistically i know that this is the best thing i can do do for us. i mean if i had been able to take the weight off (and keep it off) myself then i wouldnt need the surgery. i have been going through ups and downfor the past week but i know what i am going to do. i just wish i could get my emotions in check.

I am an emotional wreck. As I am closing out my final week at work (my last day is Friday) and preparing myself for surgery on Monday, March 15, I am growing increasingly scared of the operation. I don?t think I am afraid of dying in and of itself; my biggest fear is leaving my daughter without a mother. I am a single mom and I know that no one is going to love and take care of her the way I will. This is the main thing that is really bothering me. I am tearing up thinking about it right now. I love my baby more than anything in this world and now I have been questioning the reasons I am doing this. At first I told myself that I am doing it to add years on to my life and to be around longer for my daughter. To get off of high blood pressure and high cholesterol medications. To be more active with her. Can?t I do all of this without risky surgery? Am I taking the easy way out? I am just so scared of leaving my daughter motherless I don?t know what to do.

Congrats! I am 11 days out and growing more nervous by the day. I am starting to have trouble sleeping with the anticipation of the surgery and preparing everyone at work for my time off. Things are so hectic!

At last I have my surgery date! March 15th!! OMG, thats like just around the corner! I am feeling excited and scared at the same time! They tried to give me March 9th, but that was a bit too scary for me, being the week after next. I almost took it but anxiety got the better of me. Any suggestions of what i will need in the hospital?

yay! i cant wait to be in your shoes! hopefully only 2 or 3 more weeks to go. congrats and good luck. how was your experience with the anesthesia?

thanks all!

Thanks againg to everyone who talked me down from the ledge. had the follow up appointment with my gastro this evening and i am elated to report that all is well! no problems and no h pylori!!!!!! i have my final consut with the surgeon 1 week from today and will have a confirmed date! yay me! thanks again!

congrats! i hope be be right behind you soon.

thanks too everyone for talking me down ioff of the ledge. i am in a better frame of mind and able to take things one day at a time. i scedulle the follow up meeting with my gastro for 2/16 (this coming tuesday) to go over the endoscopy results. i also found out that my insurance has approved my surgery (after only a week an d a half) i have a tentative surgery date for 3/8. i have my final consult with the surgeon on 2/24. i am so excited! thanks again to everyone for keeping me sane

midwestgirl, you are so right. i have been worrying myself sick. with every twinge of my stomach i am cringing. i am just going to let it go. i am glad evrything worked out with you! thanks for the encouragement.

Wow, I have been sitting here at work stressing and doing research on peptic ulcers, gastritis h pylori, haital hernias and stomach cancer and not until I read your message, LAN2k, was i able to take a step back and relax a bit. I will not obsess about this. I will have faith that whatever it is, God will see me through. Thank you so much!

Thanks Tiff. I understand what you are saying but it is hard to stay positive. If everything was ok he would have told me so over the phone, right? Its just driviing me crazy!!

I had my Endoscopy last week Wednesday. I had my edoscopy last week wednesday. The doctor told me that everything looked good with the exception of mild gastritis. He said to book an appointment in 4 weeks. To go over the results. So, me being the impatient pushy person that I am called the office yesterday (one week after the test) to ask if the results were back yet. I receptionist said that she would have the doctor call me back. So I get to my voicemail at work this morning and there is a message from the receptionist saying that that in regards to the results I have to make a follow-up appointment next week. What if I have something that excludes me from VSG??! I don?t know what I would do with myself. What if i have a tumor or something!!! I am so scared and now I have to wait a whole week to find out whats what. I am going to go insane!

I agree with Tiff answer no to questions asking if you ever felt like hurting yourself or others and if you've ever contemplated suicide. A friend of mine who was going through the process of having wls saw the psychologist and answered yes to sometimes contemplating suicide (she has some issues) and they ended up telling her that she wasnt a suitable candidate "at this time" and that she should consider further psychiatric (yes psychatric) treatment. About a year later, however, she went to another surgeon/psych and paid special attention the question and her answers and passed the psych exam with no problem. best of luck!

welcome! congrats on your upcoming surgery. i can relate to eating more/differently than you would normally. i dont even have a date yet and i find myself indulging more than a little in foods that i would normally stay away from. thats is fairly normal, right?

Tiffy, you frickin' rock! this is exactly what i wanted but could not effectively communicate. you are the best! thank you sooooooooooo much!

Thanks MINI-Me but I think what I need is some a little more formal which states facts about my history, comorbidities and reasons why my PCP feels that i am a good candidate for WLS. Thanks again for repsonding to so fast!

Hi all. I am getting closer to receiving a surgery date. the only things left for me to do is have an endoscopy (februar 3rd) and have my PCP sign a letter of support. Does anyone have a sample that I can use? Thanks!

Welcome rlocke! Congrats on getting your surgery scheduled! 1/26...thats like the week after next. I hope to have my surgery date within the next 2 weeks. Just have some bloodwork and an edoscopy to complete. Psych eval and nutritionist are this Wednesday. I look forward to witnessing your journey.

thanks to everyone for responding. you all have made me feel so much better just by sharing. it helps so much when you can compare notes!