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Sorry girls but I gotta vent. Jakes teacher has been sending notes home about his behavior every day. Today her note had a yellow straight face and said much improved. Then the yellow straight face and note was crossed out and she put a red sad face and said he was looking out the window too much. Seriously? Are you fing kinding me. We have been putting him on tv restriction each nite he brings home a red face. Am I really suppose to put him on restriction for looking out the window? We requested a conference. I don't feel like that was a big enough offense to wash away his whole day of "improvement". She is being way to picky and I am afraid she is just picking on him. She has only sent home a couple pages of his classwork. They were all coloring pages and one page where he wrote his name 5 times. He hates coloring and has been writing his name over a year now. Sounds like he could be bored and tired because he isn't napping any more. I am so frustrated trying to fix a problem in his behavior when it might not be him at all. Yesterday her note said he colored all over his desk. Why would he do that? He doesn't do stuff like that with our family or us. These little notes aren't clarifying what the real issue is. Do they just not get along? Is he bored? tired? angry?

So glad to see merry is healing so well. Congrats Janet on the opportunity to represent all of us. Good luck. Welcome Marie, glad to her your doing well on the plan. Just jump in and tell us about yourself. I have been reading since friday. My teachers have all posted their reading assignments for the first week of class. Gonna take a break though in a minute and start week 3 of my 5k training. Jacobs bowel issue improves and then goes to pot. Right now we are in the "goes to pot stage". The doc said I could adjust his dose of lactulose how I see fit so I increased it 3 ml. 15 is too much and 10 is not enough. He still has accidents at home but hasn't had any at school. Thankfully. It is always about 4 so I am gonna watch him more closely around that time. The doc said it could take years to correct. I feel so bad for him. Well, I am off to do week 3 of c25k. Have a great week. Hope I will have time to check in but if not just know that it's school work keeping me busy.

Nysparkle, I had the same feeling. Like this was something we all should work on. Not just send home a note and expect change overnight. I really think it was his nerves making him act goofy. I have seen him get nervous before and he does some strange things. I volunteered again in the clinic today and she came in and told me that he has been doing awesome since we talked with him. I do think it has helped too that he knows I am in the clinic. I think some people expect me to bring him home and tear his butt up and then he won't do it again. That may be why she sent the note home. I just don't spank him. He is the kind that you can talk about things and put on restriction. He really is a great kid and in prek we never had a negative word said about him. Atleast now she is raving on his behavior. Thanks for your input. I am still new to this school thing. I just finished week 2 of my 5k training and it feels good. I want to get my speed up a little bit. I am running 4.5 miles per hour. I'd like to get closer to 6 so I can finish the race before they close the gate. All in time. Volunteered again today and it went well. A first grader told me I had a double chin. I thought that thing was going away. In 2 weeks hubby and I are going to a tattoo convention with my dad and his girlfriend. My Hubby and Dad both want tattoos. Dads girlfriend has 3 already and loves them so it should be a fun intresting night getting to see all the art and think about their designs. Plus there will be some local bands. Mil wants to go to the beach with us on labor day. I couldn't come up with a good reason to say no. I told her Don would probably be working but she still wants me and Jake to go. There have been alot of shark bites this year too. 3 this month just in our area. Not looking forward to being around Don's family by myself.

School was much better today. Teachers note even said he did better. It's just all a little confusing. The staff is still trying to figure out how to get the kids in and out of the building. I did volunteer today. I didn't even think of putting it on my resume'. Thanks apples. They are in desperate need of clinic help. One lady is a semester behind me in school and said she felt like she wasn't ready to handle it. You really are limited to what you do. We can't just give them tylenol and send them back to class. We can't give any med without written permission. So mostly we just call their parents. I just sat with them and chatted them up till their parent came. Just simple first aid stuff. Wasn't as big a deal as I was expecting. Band-aids and time out was mostly what they needed. Tomorrow I will have to remember to take a couple school books. When I finally went to get Jake the cafe was so quite. They really are trying to keep the peace and be more efficient. Also over heard alot in the office. I worked right next to the principals office all day. She is working hard to take care of the pickup problem. I also suggested they take donations of clothes for the children who have accidents. She was so excited about it. So grateful too that I was there. Helps ease my neves about meeting all these new people. I really think the principal used to be my highschool softball coach. I worked out with them a little before I moved so I don't remember it. She just looks so familiar. Oh well I am rambling. It just feels good not spending your whole day home alone. So happy Merry is doing so well. I thought it would atlest be a week but she sounds wonderful. Oneday, I hope your doc can fix you up. Get well soon.

Wow Cheri you have a big decision. Alot of hard work for being retired but I do understand when family calls we get in gear. I am glad that you are able to do this for them. My hubby and I have had a few talks about what to do with his parents when they get there too. They are still taking care of his 40 year old sister. They insist that she is not gonna live long enough for it to be an issue when they retire. We just couldn't manage all 3 of them. It is such a tough choice but you are such a smart and caring lady. Hope that you know that and it will give you a little peace in making the right decision. You will always have us for moral support. Jake asked me this morning if he could have Breakfast at school. So independant. Now he wants to buy his own breakfast. It's just $1.50 so ok. He is getting to be so big. They made an announcment yesterday that they needed volunteers in the clinic. I am gonna look into it and see what all they need and if it will fit my skill level. It would be great if I could work with another nurse.

Things got just a bit crazy picking Jake up from school today. They could not find him. Finally they escorted me inside to look for him and the poor thing was scared to tears. He heard his name on the intercom but didn't know that it meant I was ready to pick him up. Where was his teacher? I don't know. He was left in the cafeteria with alot of other kids who were being loud and he has never been in a situation like that before. The principal asked me to come inside and get him tomorrow. Then I found a note in his backpack saying he needs learn to sit and listen to directions. Then he tells us someone hit him with an orange traffic cone and that nobody likes him. It makes me sad to hear him say that but I keep pushing him to try. This is our best option until we can afford private school. Hubby is feeling so guilty for not being able to put him in private. He is taking it really hard. Telling me about how much he was picked on in school and stuff. I keep trying to tell him this is not the same. It is only the second day of school. He has all these negative feelings toward public school and I don't want my son to get those same feelings. I think he should keep trying so I keep asking my husband not to talk about it in front of my son. We need this to work out. If it doesn't hubby will want me to homeschool. Which means we will be stuck on this tight budget life forever. I just see that the 3 of us are a family and we all need to participate in the cost cutting for a bit so we can reach our goal as a family. In the end it will make life better for us all.

I actually considered writing his name on all his pencils but relized it would be considered ocd so I didn't. I just bought alot of them to replace what he loses. Yes he was still a napper. He slept so good last night though. Fell asleep right away. Usually he "reads" in bed before he falls asleep. It took forever yesterday waiting in the pick up line to get him. My car was begining to over heat and I was being so careful with it. He tells me he didn't have any recess. I can settle for not have nap time but I am gonna make sure this boy gets some exercise. I def don't want him to miss out on learning the importance of exercise. I am hoping once they get settled they will incorporate it in. The school is brand new and they still are doing some construction. The field behind it is all torn up and there is no gym. I may just take him to the park or pool for 30 minutes after school if it isn't raining. I am thinking maybe sometime this week (since I am out of school) going and doing volunteer hours in the class or something. They require 20 hours a year from the parents per child. Thanks for the gold medal guys. Peas, I have a change of clothes in his backpack just in case. Mainly because he has the bowel problem. He is my only child too. I worry and keep my phone by me. Do the best you can and let him grow ya know. When my dog patrick was hit by a car it made me so sick to see him afterwards on all the pain meds. He barked at us with his tongue hanging out. It was all slurred. He was just fine after a few days. It may take merry longer but pretty soon you will worry that you can't keep her still and she's overdoing it. We kept patrick in the crate to keep him off his leg. Mrs, Bubba, Don't know how you can handle all those sweets. I will eat them if I don't trash them. My MIL brought over 20 apple cinnamon bagels from panera. I thought about it for hours before I finally trashed them. It was so hard to get rid of them. I trained again for the 5k today. I am pushing through the times I want to quit running and just walk. Afterwards my muscles are all warm and loose. It feels good. Next week I will go up to running 3 min at a time. right now I am only doing 90 seconds. I am learning though how to get over the hump and into the zone.

I want my baby back too. I just dropped him off at kindergarten. I stayed a couple minutes then asked him if he was ready for me to leave. He said yes but can I hug you. So sweet and no tears. I felt a little naive. I asked the teacher if he would be needing anything for nap time and she told me they don't have nap time in kindergarten. I saw the daily schedule and he will be soo busy. I hope he isn't cranky when he gets home. So I am just home by myself now. Reading through my school books. Trying to be prepared for my first day of school. As I am reading I am getting more confident about doing this. I find this stuff intresting (not like the film class I took). I think I am gonna ride the bike this afternoon. It is a down day for the 5k training so I will take it easy but still get to moving. Hubby's boss is out of town so he will be busy all week. No day off this week. I was hoping to get in a motorcycle ride but then his boss had to go to some training. Jbflorida, Have fun meeting with your "puppy".lol Mrs. Bubba, Glad you got some rest.

I just wany to say congrats and that I love you. I am so glad I get to use your experience and wisdom on my journey. Thanks to you for supporting me. Bill Cosby is doing a new show online. He will be interviewing kids. It is called OBKB. I just got back from the gym and actually did week 2, day 1 of C25K training. I made it through the whole thing. This is this first time I made it as far as week 2 without injury or giving up. My husband is going to start the training too. Hopefully in the end we will be able to do 5k's together. I ran for 1.5 minutes 5 times. So excited. I am studying for my first dosage calc exam. I took the practice one and it was so easy. These are things I use to teach the 7th and 8th grade students when I was a teachers assistant. I just need to memorize a few things so I can convert from standard to metric. Don's boss actually bought Jake some back to school supplies and a monster truck. I thought that was just so sweet of him. Every bit helps around this time.

I was doing fine with skipping breakfast until I increased my exercise. Glad to see I am not the only one but now that I am working out so much I think I need to make sure I get something in me far enough in advance to be of some use. I was thin too until I moved in with my Dad and stepmother. She ran a daycare and was required to cook certain things at each meal. I just ate whatever she made for breakfast, lunch and dinner. That was the first time in my life I was over weight. Never thought of it in that way. Atleast check into the ultra sound thing if it is really what you want to do. Then you can make and educated decision on if it is worth all the work or not. Also apply for some financial aid at FAFSA.ed.gov. I got most of my money from applying there. Good luck with it. Not much going on here today. Just went swimming this morning and worked out while in the pool. I lost 3 pounds this week too. I can feel my core and leg muscles after each 5k training session. I called yesterday and made a fill appointment. There is a tattoo convention coming up in 2 weeks hubby wants to go so bad. My dad was also talking about getting a tat so I think I am gonna invite him to go. We can ride our bikes down there and hang out. Also I believe it is llkb4me's birthday today. Happy Birthday.

I have heard so many great things about Dr. Davis. Glad you got to use him as your surgeon. I really learned alot from his book. I saw you talking about him but I didn't know it was the same one. Hitting the books today. I started studying for my Medical terminology exam last night. I know alot of it already from taking Anatomy and Physiology and Microbiology. I was a bit surprised to know 45 of the 50 flashcards already. I just can't believe where I am in life. I am actually walking this path. I had given up 4 years ago when they told me I was mentally ill. I didn't expect to ever do anything like this. I know this is a little out there but my doc actually encourages us to skip Breakfast. I am totally not making this up. He says it keeps us in Ketosis longer and helps us burn more fat. He says if I am not hungry for breakfast then don't eat. He encourages us to use things he calls "bridges" To help us get over the hunger. They are things like SF Gum, and black coffee (which is his personal favorite). My last visit with him he told me he lost all his weight without surgery by just stopping eating. He said it in a way like I was suppose to follow suit. I know my body needs Proteins and Vitamins and minerals. So I am disagreeing a bit with him on some things. I have to remember this is my journey not his. I hate to disagree cause I pay him for his educated opinion. I just feel like he crossed the line implying I should stop eatting. He has a new partner and I am hoping to work with him more now.

Hit a man wear it hurts, THE WALLET! LOL A great book I found written by Dr. Garth Davis is called The Experts Guide to Weightloss Surgery. He talks about how bypassers loose a huge chunk of their weight in the begining but banders don't get that tidal wave of weight loss until months out when they find the sweet spot in their fill level. Until we find that sweet spot we are training ourselves to keep the weight off by learning to eat right and exercise. Bypassers don't learn this lesson till later. Don't sweat it. Every pound you lose is earned no matter how fast they come. Had a good day today. Went to the beach this morning. Had lunch then did my 5k training. The my brother came over and we went to the pool and had dinner. Nice relaxing family day. I had a little trouble getting through the 5k training today. I just felt like I reached the end of my energy earlier than usual. Ended up walking my last 2 sprints. I think skipping Breakfast and the time out in the heat suck the energy from me. I am gonna repeat my running plan on saturday instead of moving to the next step. I did have a healthy lunch and dinner. Just larger portion sizes. I may call my doc and move up my next fill appointment. My weight is going back down. A pound a week. I know I can do better. I have done better. Peas, Thanks for the advice about the resume'. When It comes time I may need some advice on how to do it. I have been a stay at home mom for 6 years with odd jobs. Alot has changed since I last worked steady. I don't know how to explain the gaps or if I should put every single job on there. I don't have contact info for the times I was a nanny.

Peas, I am going through some of the same feelings. My son is starting kindergarten. It is such a strange feeling to be proud of him and missing him at the same time. Slowly he is learning to do more and more for himslef but one thing I learned is that once he learns one thing there comes 10 more things he needs to learn. He may be able to ride the bus but you will have new homework time to teach him all kinds of things. My son is dressing himself now but I am teaching him to play catch and hit a ball. It's is hard to let go but we do it so we can embrace something new. My stepmother was in love with the story you posted while my sister was a baby. I could never get my son to sit and listen to it. It is such a sweet story though.

Got most my books today. Ordered 2 from Amazon and still need money for the last 3. I may be in class before I can get them but it is the best I can do. Also gonna go to the Career Center on campus and get help with doing a resume'. I will be graduating December '11. So I want to get it together over the next few months and maybe start to get my name out there. That is what the career counselor suggested. I have my work history typed up but it is a bit of a mess. I have stayed home for 6 years but worked odd jobs here and there. Jobs that I could still be with Jacob while doing them. I have some volunteer positions too. I don't know how all this goes onto a resume'. I bought some supplies from a Nursing grad today and he offered to send me study guides. I thought that was so nice. Gave him my email address. My brother is coming over again tommorrow. I am gonna spend the day with my family tomorrow before I start to really dive into these books. I don't know if I told you guys but my 17 year old sister was pregnant. I found out yesterday that she lost the baby. So sad. Confusing. Relieved. Hard to explain all the feelings. During orientation they scheduled some things for us to do the first day of school instead of the test. We will be the only class not to take an exam on day 1. The other classes are a little jealous. I am just hoping they don't surprise us with one.

Thanks Apples One day, So sorry to hear about the stress but your really just exchanging one for another. In the end you have a great opportunity to find a job you really love. Yesterday was a long boring orientation into the nursing program. In the end I ended up with a good schedule. I only need a sitter for 2 hours a week. My Dad and his girlfriend are gonna take care of it and I told them I will be paying them. So much info to keep track of yesterday. I hope I haven't forgotten something. Had 10 emails today from the nursing tutor to help keep me on track. They also explained how busy we would be because this is an accelerated program. It is 2 years of education done in 16 months. We got a small loan for my books. I will be able to get them tommorrow. I am trying to get them second hand and then when I do get my scholarship money I plan to buy the electronic version of them. My MIL gave me an more up-to-date printer today. So I will be able to print out more quickly. My son had a great day yesterday. My Dad's girlfreind babysat and they had a great time. My Dad actually came home from work at lunch to eat with him and then ended up leaving work early to play with him. I will be so happy to see them two have a relationship. I told my Dad we would be having a birthday party at the beach and he offered to have it at his house and to cook smoked chicken. I love my Dad's smoked meat. So that is planned. I will probably get sides from walmart. I know I should cook some but I am going to be soo busy with school. Tommorrow is another busy day for me. I will be getting my books and starting my reading and some online tutoring sessions. Also did some more 5k training today. I read this quote yesterday. "If we did everything we actually could do we would astound ourselves." Thats how I feel about the 5k. each day I complete I just stand in the shower thinking "I just ran". Gotta tighten up my eatting habits. Kurby, Doc wanted me to start excercising 15 min a day from day one. The pool will be great as long as your incisions are healed. I had to wait 6 weeks to get in the pool though. The best thing for the pain is to move. Your muscles movement will kinda "milk" the gas out. Keep talking to us though. As long as I am posting with these ladies regularly I do well.

I was told crystal lite was great. I chose to drink propel. My doc said that was good. Just stick to sugar free. Watch the juice too. I drink the diet from ocean spray. Not the light. The diet has less carbs. My doc preferrs the low carb. You doc should have given you a list of foods. I was allowed sugar free popsicles also. No fudgesicles though. How are you feeling? Excited? or Depressed? I was a little of both post op. I didn't see any change after I woke up. LOL. But this really is a journey to change your life. That is the exciting part. I can be who I want to be including healthy. I have learned to like exercise. I have been able to actually RUN. I was so excited the first day I did it I almost cried. I remember twice when my son was young he got into danger and I couldn't get to him because I couldn't run. I was so scared. Now I race him around the tball field. When I checked the mail the other day, I saw a package from my school. Looked like my acceptance letter. I ran from the mailbox to my apartment so I could open it with my hubby. Sure enough it was my acceptance letter. I don't just look better I feel better. I didn't realize how bad I really did feel until I started feeling better. I am so excited for you. For all of us to have the second chance.

You are looking great! Your DGD is beautiful too. So sorry to hear about merry. It is so sad to see our little ones get sick. It is great that she is not showing any symptoms. She is happy. I couldn't feel my port right away either. I had no idea where it was. I get chest pains sometimes if I eat too much. In the begining it doesn't take but just a tad to fill the pouch. The full feeling is different now for me than it was before surgery. I would keep eating because I didn't feel the same fullness cue as before and I would be in pain and PB. You should let your doc know and get his opinion. I have been making youtube videos from preop to now. If you liked to look over them and see how I progressed you can just click on the link at the bottom of my post. Just checking in for the day. I went and had my hair cut this morning. She cut it before washing it. Never had that done before but it looks great so no complaints. I have orientation tomorrow for nursing school. I will meet the directors, teachers and fellow students. I will also be getting my schedule. Nervous and excited all at once. I have exercised 3 times this week and am about to go again. I am gonna do the c25k training again. I'll make sure I do a good warm up so I don't injure myself again.

Sorry to hear that Eva. I had a rough time at walmart today too. The cashier that helped me was almost in tears and when I got to her register I realized why. A 8-9 year old boy was having a temper tantrum. I belive he had a mental illness. His mother had him pinned to the floor and he was fighting her. All the while she was also trying to call someone on her phone to help her. It was heart breaking. I did manage to get a stethoscope today and am having my name engraved on it. I got a good deal. It is generic but I tried the name brand and generic and found I could hear better with the generic. Also got the watch I need. I measured myself for those uniforms and ordered what they recommended. Thanks for the advice to wash them before I alter them. I am really short and these uniforms are really long. Expecially the tops. Makes me look dumpy. But I am proud to wear them. Had a long day today so I am gonna sign off. Good nite all.

Thanks for the encouragement on the childcare issue. I have just seen some bad things. I have seen good too so I should tryi to focus on that. I use to be a nanny myself. I was totally in love with the children. There must be people out there who do a great job. I called the ymca and they don't have a program that will work. I did answer a few ads today. We shall see. I understand some of what your daugter is going through. I have been in there myself. It takes alot of want to from a person. If she admitted herself that is a great sign that she has it. I hope she will take the time to focus on herself and what it takes to get better. A lot of drama in those places but you can learn alot. Congrats on being hit on. What a NSV. LOL My uniforms arrived today and they are slightly big. I measured before I ordered them but I can take them in a bit. I will probably be doing that alot.

I am so excited. My uniforms are scheduled for delivery today. I will post pics when I can. Who doesn't love getting a package. The deal with the books is if you buy them new, you can access them online too. They have the entire book online and last semester I found that so helpful when studying. Plus talking with a student already in she said it really helps speed up writing out care plans. She copies and paste right from the book into her care plan. I want that but if I don't have the money I may have to just do without and buy used. We don't use credit cards. we use cash for almost everything. We are considering getting a small loan though. We can pay it off as soon as I get my financial aid. Just something we are considering. At some point today I gotta run my son to my MIL. It's and hour drive. She is gonna let him stay the night since we have the dinner tonite. My SIL just moved back in with them yesterday. It is kinda crazy over there right now. I just didn't know anyone else on such short notice. Sometimes people without kids don't think about things like this. I gotta make some friends close to here. We are very nervous about the babysitter thing. I do intend to pay my family for babysitting. You are right that it can cause drama though. We are really protective of him. He has only had 2 babysitters. My MIL and my Dads girlfriend. He has never even stayed with my stepmother or mother. We hear so many horror stories about babysitters. I am gonna ask my Dad's girlfriend first. If that doesn't workout I will look into hiring a professional. I wonder if the ymca would do a pick up at the school? I'll call and find out about that.

Thanks for the Apples update. Had a great dinner with my brother. He gets along so well with my husband. My husband and I have been invited to another business dinner. This time I an not gonna sweat it. Haven't pbed in awhile so I will just chew good and be fine. More nervous about the company and meeting new people but I will be fine. Nothing crippling. I actually just touched up my hair color today. Had like a whole day of beauty at home. Didn't realize we would be going out. I just know I am gonna be meeting alot of new people at school so I want to put up a good first impression. Next monday I will be meeting everyone in charge of the program and all my classmates. After that I'll get my books and start working my tail off. It's coming so fast.

A beach party sounds great. My son loves the beach. I will ask my family if they are willing to do that. Thanks Cheri. No plans today. Still waiting for one last thing for my finacial aid. I took care of it. Just waiting for someone to input it into the computer. I had to take a little class online about financial aid and loans. Just waiting for the goverment to notify my school that I did it. Found out yesterday that I will only have 480 dollars credit toward books and I will need to cover the other 300 up front. Then I will be rembursed in sept. Just another wrench in our plans.

Thanks guys, I really just want to invite 4 people to his party but even that is too much for our apt. The four people are just family. If we do have it at the museum I will invite some school friends. I don't have time to plan something big. Just pizza and cake. He will be entertained with his gifts and us adults can spend time together. My brother is coming over again tommorrow. I am so excited he wants to hang out with us. He is 10 years younger than me so I feel old but he is so excited to be around my family. He still lives with my mother and stepfather and they are awful. Maybe he just needs a place to get away sometimes.

Good morning, Got up kinda early this morning. My son crawled in bed with me but couldn't really sleep. Trying to get some plans etched out for his birthday next month. We wanted to have a couple people over but our apt is too small. I considered the club house. After talking to the manager I realized it is too expensive. I am thinking maybe I could do it at my dads house. I don't get to see or talk to my Dad much though. He is always busy. Not sure about asking. Also considered the museum. We are members so we get a discount. Gotta call about that today. I am trying to convince my husband to plan this since I will have so much on my plate. He hasn't put much thought into it though. Also trying to find a sitter. I will need someone to get Jake to and from school a couple times a week. The extended day program doesn't have the hours I need. I will be calling my Dads girlfriend today to see if she is intrested. If not I will have to hire a stranger. That is alot of work. Makes me nervous too. Also plan to get some excercise on my wii today and eat what my doc recommends. This morning I was fixing my son cereal for breakfast and out of habit almost grabbed a handful. Things tend to sneak in that way. Those are my plans for today. Hope yall's day goes well.

The test on day one has something to do with calculating dosage. Atleast thats the rumor. I will be having a test every Monday. Atleast it gives me the weekend to study. So sorry about the PBing in a porta potty. I can't stand to pb in public toliets cause the smell. Can't imagine the ports potty. Cheri, I saw inception too. We loved it. We walked out thinking WOW. I will definately watch it again. Went to the beach today. Got a little tan. No burn. My son was learning to use a boogie board. It is a small surf board that you lay on your belly and ride the waves. He was just so cute. Kept saying "that was so awesome". Then my husband tried but was too big for the one we bought. He kept getting a mouthful of water. We are trying to enjoy some family time before my son and I start school.