Dark_Lovely

I started on this journey almost 2 years ago. I am very disappointed in myself i have not lost all the weight i know i should have lost. Mainly because of bad eating habits and secondly because i became so caught up in my career that i didn't make time to get my fills or stay on track. Now i am trying to get back on track and don't know where to start. Most recently I had the amount of fluid in my band lessened as I was suffering from acid reflux and the shape of my stomach was changing. Which i know was from me overeating and making bad food choices. As a result I gained 12 pounds. I feel like I am right where i started when i began this journey. For some reason, for every emotion I feel i eat. I'm happy, sad, depressed or angry I eat. Food is like a comforter to me, it makes me feel better and comforts me.

It may also be gas. I am not sure whether or not if you are getting up and walking around. But i notice that when i constantly sit or lay down my upper body gets tight

Today is my first day after being banded. I have a lot of soreness especially around the port site. I felt better yesturday after the procedure than i do today, Everything happened so quickly. I checked in at the front then they took me to the back for preparation, rolled me in to the OR, banded me in about 35-45 mins and the next thing you know i was in the recovery room. I felt pressure and gas until i got up and walked around. I had some apple juice did a couple of test and left, I felt so good yesturday that i stopped and picked up a vanilla latte! After the anesthesia wears off you feel the soreness and tenderness from where the port is. The other incisions don't bother me nearly as much. i have ice packs to that incision and i just took another dose of pain meds. This is the first time i have ever had surgery and it wasn't bad that all. You just have to make sure to walk and keep your pain meds close to you! I haven't craved food that all if anything i have been extremely thristy. Apple juice and popsicles have been my best friends:closedeyes:

Today is my first day after being banded. I have a lot of soreness especially around the port site. I felt better yesturday after the procedure than i do today, Everything happened so quickly. I checked in at the front then they took me to the back for preparation, rolled me in to the OR, banded me in about 35-45 mins and the next thing you know i was in the recovery room. I felt pressure and gas until i got up and walked around. I had some apple juice did a couple of test and left, I felt so good yesturday that i stopped and picked up a vanilla latte! After the anesthesia wears off you feel the soreness and tenderness from where the port is. The other incisions don't bother me nearly as much. i have ice packs to that incision and i just took another dose of pain meds. This is the first time i have ever had surgery and it wasn't bad that all. You just have to make sure to walk and keep your pain meds close to you! I haven't craved food that all if anything i have been extremely thristy. Apple juice and popsicles have been my best friends:closedeyes:

Yes. That's right! Tomorrow is my big day but i'm not feeling so big about it. If anything this doesn't feel real. i can't believe i'm actually doing it. I am so nervous and anxious.:smile2:

Yes. That's right! Tomorrow is my big day but i'm not feeling so big about it. If anything this doesn't feel real. i can't believe i'm actually doing it. I am so nervous and anxious.:cursing:

I can't believe it i am 6 days away from being banded. I'm not nervous right now i think as the days get closer and the reality starts to sit in i will get a little more nervous. For the most part i am excited and ready for this new journey. The liquid diet has become somewhat easier. it is just hard to drink a chalky shake when everyone around you is eating real food but ultimately i'm thinking about how much better i am going to feel. Right now my feet and ankles are retaining water and we won't even start on the back pain from carrying the weight. I'm just ready to get the weight off so ican feel better.

I can't believe it i am 6 days away from being banded. I'm not nervous right now i think as the days get closer and the reality starts to sit in i will get a little more nervous. For the most part i am excited and ready for this new journey. The liquid diet has become somewhat easier. it is just hard to drink a chalky shake when everyone around you is eating real food but ultimately i'm thinking about how much better i am going to feel. Right now my feet and ankles are retaining water and we won't even start on the back pain from carrying the weight. I'm just ready to get the weight off so ican feel better.

10 more days and counting. So i attended a pre-op seminar today and the nurse went over what to expect what to eat and what not to eat. i didn't realize there were 2 different makers of the lap band. it was nice to get the information about the expectations and how the procedure goes. This is the first surgery i have ever had and lets just say that i am not fondof needles. thank God they have some numbing gel!

10 more days and counting. So i attended a pre-op seminar today and the nurse went over what to expect what to eat and what not to eat. i didn't realize there were 2 different makers of the lap band. it was nice to get the information about the expectations and how the procedure goes. This is the first surgery i have ever had and lets just say that i am not fondof needles. thank God they have some numbing gel!

Of all things my Dr. decided to put me on a liquid Optifast diet for 2 weeks. I can only consume 800 calories a day which must be all liquids. i can have an Optifast shake, suger-free jello, water, flavored water, calorie-free non carbonated drinks. Now if i could actually stick to this diet then i wouldn't need to be banded. had to remind the dr. that the reason i was getting banded was because i had an eating problem that i can not control. So what in the hell made him think i would faithfully do a liquid diet for 2 weeks? Sure i am a self-pay patient and that should be incentive enough. but it isn't. i did good the 1-3 days but i broke all the way down today for mother's day. i had grilled chicken, double baked potateo and corn. I ate a smaller portion as my stomach has shrink. but that food felt so good going down. I almost felt like hiding some of the food for later, i feel like i am never going to eat again! I promised myself i would get back on track tomorrow and pull myself together. It is much easier to stick to the diet when i am at work but when the weekends come all hell breaks loose and i eat everything in site.

Of all things my Dr. decided to put me on a liquid Optifast diet for 2 weeks. I can only consume 800 calories a day which must be all liquids. i can have an Optifast shake, suger-free jello, water, flavored water, calorie-free non carbonated drinks. Now if i could actually stick to this diet then i wouldn't need to be banded. had to remind the dr. that the reason i was getting banded was because i had an eating problem that i can not control. So what in the hell made him think i would faithfully do a liquid diet for 2 weeks? Sure i am a self-pay patient and that should be incentive enough. but it isn't. i did good the 1-3 days but i broke all the way down today for mother's day. i had grilled chicken, double baked potateo and corn. I ate a smaller portion as my stomach has shrink. but that food felt so good going down. I almost felt like hiding some of the food for later, i feel like i am never going to eat again! I promised myself i would get back on track tomorrow and pull myself together. It is much easier to stick to the diet when i am at work but when the weekends come all hell breaks loose and i eat everything in site.:biggrin:

It wasn't until i looked at some pictures i took the other day that i realized how much weight i had gained. I mean the scale has been reading 248 for awhile but in my mind i didn't feel like i looked like i weighed that much until i saw the pictures. untouched photos do not lie.

It wasn't until i looked at some pictures i took the other day that i realized how much weight i had gained. I mean the scale has been reading 248 for awhile but in my mind i didn't feel like i looked like i weighed that much until i saw the pictures. untouched photos do not lie. :biggrin: