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Amen. When I picked up my Quest study bible and looked in the category search to find words on guilt guess what topic was listed at the very top....GUILT. I'm guessing that's not a coincidence. Thank you for the thought-provoking words.

Well after being awake all night last night for reasons I really can't figure out I am going to bed early tonight. That will show that protein shake who's boss:thumbup: This is day 3 of my 10 day liquid diet. So far the only solid food I have had is about 2 oz. steak and 2 Tbsp. mashed potatoes last night when DH finally grilled the KC strip. I wasn't about to deny myself totally. Thought I did pretty well. The physical hunger hasn't really been bad. The head hunger is a different matter when I let myself think about it. I have been using Julie Ann's "Am I really Hungery?" and that really helps. Thanks, Julie Ann! Other than that, I have had a total of almost 1500 calories in 3 days. I keep saying to myself "Self, if you can do this you can lose the weight without the surgery." Then I say "Self, you have lost weight before. You have lost 30 lbs. 10 times in the last 5 years and gained 40 back each time. Self, DO THE MATH!!!!!!" Told my DD today and she was NOT supportive. I love her dearly but when she said "You just need to eat less, eat the right foods and exercise" I would have choked her but we were on the phone. Fortunate for her. Did I mention she is 5'5 and weighs 120 lbs? Easy for her to say. Seriously though I know that's why I keep avoiding telling people. I just don't want to deal with the negative input. Good news for today....had my preop assessment and final visit with the surgeon. All is a go for July 15th. I was having serious doubts and he really took alot of time with me and answered all my questions. It really helps that he is a friend of a friend and they think he is a very honest, caring, down-to-earth surgeon. Somewhat unusual for surgeons, I understand. Anyway, he had the lapband in 3 years ago and said he would do it again. I like that!! Oh, yeah, I have lost 11 lbs in the last 3 weeks:thumbup:! I know this is long but it's been a big day.

Well after being awake all night last night for reasons I really can't figure out I am going to bed early tonight. That will show that protein shake who's boss:thumbup: This is day 3 of my 10 day liquid diet. So far the only solid food I have had is about 2 oz. steak and 2 Tbsp. mashed potatoes last night when DH finally grilled the KC strip. I wasn't about to deny myself totally. Thought I did pretty well. The physical hunger hasn't really been bad. The head hunger is a different matter when I let myself think about it. I have been using Julie Ann's "Am I really Hungery?" and that really helps. Thanks, Julie Ann! Other than that, I have had a total of almost 1500 calories in 3 days. I keep saying to myself "Self, if you can do this you can lose the weight without the surgery." Then I say "Self, you have lost weight before. You have lost 30 lbs. 10 times in the last 5 years and gained 40 back each time. Self, DO THE MATH!!!!!!" Told my DD today and she was NOT supportive. I love her dearly but when she said "You just need to eat less, eat the right foods and exercise" I would have choked her but we were on the phone. Fortunate for her. Did I mention she is 5'5 and weighs 120 lbs? Easy for her to say. Seriously though I know that's why I keep avoiding telling people. I just don't want to deal with the negative input. Good news for today....had my preop assessment and final visit with the surgeon. All is a go for July 15th. I was having serious doubts and he really took alot of time with me and answered all my questions. It really helps that he is a friend of a friend and they think he is a very honest, caring, down-to-earth surgeon. Somewhat unusual for surgeons, I understand. Anyway, he had the lapband in 3 years ago and said he would do it again. I like that!! Oh, yeah, I have lost 11 lbs in the last 3 weeks:thumbup:! I know this is long but it's been a big day.

Good luck to you. I hope all goes well. With a hunnie like yours you're on the right track. If I suggested that to my DH he would think I had gone insane....which by the 10th day of this I just might LOL Best of luck to you!

Are you already on liquids and still have 13 days to go? Oh, my! I'm on day 3 with only 7 more to go and I will be very glad when surgeery day comes because then I will know there is a light at the end of the tunnell LOL I'm just trying to keep busy

Good luck to you. Speaking of being a sweet tea aholic I can relate.....do you know if there is a GOOD caffein free tea or green tea out there?

Congratulations!

Day 1 of liquid diet is done. No cheating. This is good. Fortunately my DH didn't grill steaks like I told him he could go ahead and do. I can only imagine that my will power would have been that good. Anyway, the hunger hasn't been bad and now I'm going to bed. 9 days to go.......

Day 1 of liquid diet is done. No cheating. This is good. Fortunately my DH didn't grill steaks like I told him he could go ahead and do. I can only imagine that my will power would have been that good. Anyway, the hunger hasn't been bad and now I'm going to bed. 9 days to go.......

I hope to meet you there on Thursday. I love that you already have your ticker ready to go. I have to figure out how to do that since SURELY I'll lose a few pounds on this darned liquid diet:tongue2:

Thank you. I remember someone telling me one time that food addiction was the hardest to break. You can live without tobacco, drugs, alcohol. You cannot live without food. I have been struggling with my pride and not being able to do this "on my own". Your post has clarified for me that I am an addict. I need help and the lapband will be a help. That's all. The rest is up to me but there should be no shame in seeking help, in whatever form that comes in. Thank you.

So confusing. I've seen this, read this theory, etc. but my nutritionist says 3 meals a day (post banding) no snacks in between. Why? How can people in the same field (nutrition) say such totally opposite things? I certainly like the more small meals concept but then I also think maybe that makes me focus more on when can I have my next meal. I guess I'll follow my docs guidelines and see what happens.........

I never considered bypass. Too many complications. I also have a good friend that did bypass and she has regained most of her weight. None of the surgerys are fool proof and I know I will have to work at it every day but I just felt the lapband was the thing for me at this time. As for the suicide rate, I had not heard that. However, I do think you need to be emotionally ready for the procedure and the lifestyle change. 5 years ago I could not have said that I was. Now I am. I hope whatever decision you make works well fo you.

Thanks for all your input. I'm leaning toward lapband just because the little metal hooks on the Realize kind of freak me out. Guess I'm a bit of a chicken. LOL

My banding isn't until 7/15 but will be at the support group meeting this Thursday!

I pigged out yesterday. Pizza for lunch, steak for dinner. It tasted good but I felt HORRIBLE at the end of the day. I wanted to write this so I could go back and remember how truly awful I felt. Bloated, chest pain, lethargic, back pain, totally unable to do anything but try to go to sleep. I want to remember...:crying:

I pigged out yesterday. Pizza for lunch, steak for dinner. It tasted good but I felt HORRIBLE at the end of the day. I wanted to write this so I could go back and remember how truly awful I felt. Bloated, chest pain, lethargic, back pain, totally unable to do anything but try to go to sleep. I want to remember...

Thanks for the barf bag tip. Hadn't thought of that one LOL Have a great 4th!

Still trying to decide which to go with? Any comments/insights appreciated :smile2:

Lauren, I haven't been banded so can't help there but I have to agree with imaluckydog in that you are going through so much right now, physical and emotional. Please just take care of yourself and let yourself rest and heal. Physically and spitirually. I will keep you in my prayers.

My 10 day liquid diet begins Sunday, sooooooooooooo......today I'm having pizza, and Red Lobster. Tomorrow a big juicy steak. I am really disgusted by how much I love to eat!!!!!! I am dreading the liquid diet but I am also excited about being able to quit thinking about what I'm going to eat, when I'm going to eat, when I'm going to eat after that.......I'm not sure what I will occupy my mind with but anything will be a change from food!!!!! The overeating is exactly how I start every new diet. This feels different, though. I'm not sure how, but it just does. I have never been looking forward to a lifestyle change, eating habit changes, exercising (ok, honestly, I'm really not looking forward to exercising), but it feels RIGHT this time. It feels like this is the right tool for me at the right time. I'm scared, second-guessing, anxious, all the negative things that I think surely are normal. But I am also so READY to rid myself of these life-limiting pounds and pounds and pounds. I want to be active. I want to say goodbye to the aches and pains, the exhaustion, the emotional drag of looking in the mirror and hating myself. I truly believe, when all is said and done, I AM READY!!

My 10 day liquid diet begins Sunday, sooooooooooooo......today I'm having pizza, and Red Lobster. Tomorrow a big juicy steak. I am really disgusted by how much I love to eat!!!!!! I am dreading the liquid diet but I am also excited about being able to quit thinking about what I'm going to eat, when I'm going to eat, when I'm going to eat after that.......I'm not sure what I will occupy my mind with but anything will be a change from food!!!!! The overeating is exactly how I start every new diet. This feels different, though. I'm not sure how, but it just does. I have never been looking forward to a lifestyle change, eating habit changes, exercising (ok, honestly, I'm really not looking forward to exercising), but it feels RIGHT this time. It feels like this is the right tool for me at the right time. I'm scared, second-guessing, anxious, all the negative things that I think surely are normal. But I am also so READY to rid myself of these life-limiting pounds and pounds and pounds. I want to be active. I want to say goodbye to the aches and pains, the exhaustion, the emotional drag of looking in the mirror and hating myself. I truly believe, when all is said and done, I AM READY!!

I am having the same doubts and questions. Thanks for letting me know I'm not alone. How are things going? My surgery is July 15.

Lydia, keep working with your doctor(s) and keep hammering at your insurance company.

100 lbs is WONDERFUL! Congratulations!