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My masters degree won't save my job either but it might put me a bit higher on the list............but with 200 workers getting laid off I am pretty sure I am within that number since it is more than half of CPS!!

I hear that Riley this is crazy. I hope your position is saved!! OMG I did find out about the child welfare cuts. I wonder if the 200 socialworker layoffs was before or AFTER the veto. We are already at 4-5X a normal caseload right now. We already can't handle what is going on. My guess is that todays veto was a total surprize out of left field. I bet CPS will basically be shut down in Sacramento County. 200 workers down is already a HUGE part of CPS. I guess I will find out tomorrow. But we were told last week before all this that 200 social workers were gone in September worst case scenario...........my guess is that CPS is gonna shut down except for a very small core of workers and we aren't gonna be investigation or taking kids much anymore. Scary no doubt!! This is gonna be bad I hate to even guess how many kids will die...............time to get out of the social work field for sure.

Band wise I am freaking tight still. But I did find a secret. I can still eat salad if I go really, really slow and chew really, really well.............the rest of the day was soup and yogurt and one protien shake at lunch. I need to see the calorie count........ Oh I also ate a tiny twix the halloween size.............of course it stayed down but it was very clear that only one would fit in there. I was happy with my band cause before I could eat more than one.........today one is the max that fits in my stomach....... Geeze if I get laid off I hope it is true that I can still get fills with Kaiser. I am also putting on resume's in Denver this week and thinking about tranferring to be a computer programmer where my mom works.................. I am in my something will work out mode!! I also might move back to Arkansas with my brother if I get laid off. Options, options, options.........but I would rather stay here and keep my job!!

Hey Riley I have no idea what is going on with the line veto. I was at the union office all day today in negotations with management and the union. I do know that the union told us that things were bad and that they state budget was gonna be brutal. We have been told that 200 CPS workers are going and that the state is basically drastically cutting protective services for kids. I think I will make the first cut because I have my masters degree. But who know............... The stated is taking billions from the counties and than also at the same time crippling all social services. I don't think anyone knows what will happen..............union says it will be bad. I work in a non mandated program so I know come September I will be getting a transfer probably back to the court house where I used to work. But I think I will have a job..........unless the state make more cuts in December. Riley tell me about the line veto..........I haven't seen the news I just got home!!

Morning girls I am in meetings all day today. Gonna be a long day but at least it will be inside where it is cool!! Riley hope your feeling better!! Tired today and breakfast is going slow. Gonna make some soup tonight and do liquids for a few days. Sounds like a great idea right now.

Bless Dr. Baggs for only giving me a .5cc fill!! LOL. Ok I just hope my band doesn't kick in, in two weeks!! OMG what about when Aunt Flowie comes to visit!! LOL. I can't imagine what I would do with it any tighter............someone might get a good, swift kick if that day comes!!

Reggie I am at 6cc's and um.................my band is roaring at me today.............In fact I think my band is showing its teeth today.............. I am happy as a clam now that I gave up on food today!! Band settled down and went right to sleep..............OMG this is what the band is suppose to do............the rest I think was bandster hell or partial restriction. Yea Reggie if you can eat a bagel you need a fill. The thought of a bagel is enough to do me in...................would never go down. I hope Dr. Parks lets you come in early. Girl 72 I am so impress. Your like a lap band rockstar!!

Hey Nicole I am the same as Saturday. No better no worse. Today I was like forget this I have to get the fluid out but than it got better as the day went on. I wonder if maybe I was eating more than I was suppose to and got used to that. Maybe if I follow the rules EXACTLY instead of estimating I will do better............ Chris I have to tell you 7.5cc's is scaring me right now. I would be dead I fear!! That makes me hurt inside. Oh and welcome to sliming. Geez I hate slimming. I think we all hit a good spot together. But think I will say no to another fill unless this change alot.........seems like right before time I loosen up. But this 500 calorie thing is doing me no favors. I am still the same weight after two low cal days..........I don't think I have it in me to eat 1200 cal of anything right now!! How amazing and frustrating is that? as long as I can drink water I am gonna try to make this work. Protien is hard to get down and I agree I need to chew more. That is my goal tomorrow to chew more and see if that works...............

Ok this is how it feels like right after surgery when we were all on the little sipping cups of fluids...........I have the RIGHT AFTER surgery tightness. LIke I think I need to get out the liquids and the measureing cups again...........the tiny measuring cups!!! The THIMBLE measuring cups................... I think this could be a good thin if I can learn how to get he protien in and keep in down. If I can't than I totally give and need to get some fluid taken out...........this won't be healthy for me if I can't get my protiens in and to stay in!! LOL> So anyway I am wore out today!! Imagine having the mindset that I have to eat before I go to bed instead of trying to keep myself from eating. I have had a very sudden mindset change today..............I am eating to survive, not surviving to eat. but yesterday I was eating cookies and today I want nothing to do with eating go figure. This whole thing is making me quite moody................

Hey Ladies Finally off work and relaxing. Riley I might want to trade you dates. I will take the 7th and you can have the 20th!! LOL. I think I am too tight. I am able to drink all my water no problem eating is another story. But I still am trying to work with it. I think this could be my sweet spot and I hate to get some out of this is gonna work. Just seriously I have to measure 1/4 a cup cause anything over is a HUGE problem right now. I am fighting eating sliders today. Not hungry at all today. Not even thinking about food. In fact eating is sorta a pain at this point since I get stuck so easy...............I am in the making myself eat something mode so I don't get shaky or sick. I am about 500 calories today and gonna drink a skinny latte and go to bed.................I give up today. I totally understand about why people eat sliders when they are tight...........I feel like I need to get something in my system and at least yogurt has protien. I am sorta frustrated today with this whole thing. And Reggie I gotta tell ya I can't eat the protien very well but the cookies go down fine so I hear ya!! I think you need a fill though Reggie.

I can eat a whole watermelon too........well the little personal watermelons. They go down easy. Watermelon is somewhat of a slider. I say that cause it does make me full for quite awhile if I eat the whole thing. The personal watermelons are about 4 cups of watermelon so about 80 calories. But I know it is a bad idea long term to eat so much of them. Reggie hasn't had a fill yet!! She is still the same amount as surgery but she has lot a ton of weight. I bet the band is getting loose. I wait 20 minutes when I eat. Cause the protien is hard to get and keep down. I have to eat a couple of bites let it settle and eat a couple more. The only way it will stay down and I need my protien. I figure if I can get it down in 20 minutes it is a meal and not sabatoege but I wonder if I should not be trying so hard to get the 1/4 cup down...........Hmmm. Reggie I would call in and see about a sooner appointment. Might be you and might be the band. I think it is a combo since you have been so well.

took awhile for your bandter hell to set in Reggie!! I think I would call for a sooner appointment!! Tell Dr. Parks you can eat anything and try to get in their earlier. Ok well headed into work. Gonna be a really long week this week. End of the month and all my reports and final visit due by Friday. Arghh.........gonna be crazy!! gonna eat when I get to work so I have time to let the tightness settled in. I am up one .5 this morning so cookies were not a good option ..........gotta throw them out of give them away today. My daughter makes them and won't eat them so they on the counter taunting me.................LOL.

Ah angel sent me an email to sign up for the run to feed the hungry I will look it up!!

no I am pretty sure I am 16's right now. They are what was fitting today. I guess the 18's are totally out now.........maybe in a month the 14's will work..........depends. I ate some cookies today. Darn it probably about 3 but they were all in piece........they stayed down just fine. Now my protien for the day took me about 20 minutes of very slow eating to keep the 1/4 cup down!! how crazy is that??

I wore 16 strech jeans today........but that is just not me. They felt so tight I will have to get used to this size. I felt HUGE in strech pants!! But ok I tried it out.............my daughter walke around the mall with me so it can't be to bad...........

I will check out the website. I am gonna try to do the walk to feed the hungry..................in November for sure. I think Ken and Angel are doing that one and probably some other people. I will look up the website Nicole.....

I am up for this week I think...........I have to see how far behind I am in the morning and what meetings I have.......but I think Thursday is a good day. Friday I am on call so I could come but I would have to be out of the resterant at exactly one hour to get back to the hotline room.................I am the emergency social worker that day..........yuck!! A few people mentioned doing something this week.....

Angel said the RNY people would be up for another group and that she would like to come as a participant instead of the leader so she gets her support............which is hard to get when your up front leading out............. Talked to Dr. Baggs about it and he said Kaiser always likes to have support resources for its patients.......I tried to get more out of him than that.......next time!!! LOL

A month out is a great plan makes it easier to plan ahead. I am sure as MIchaela gets started in HIgh school next month I am gonna get pulled into doing things with her school too........but I really THRIVE on having a support group so I am gonna make sure I stay connected somehow:-) And weekends are better Candra for all us county and state workers...............LOL. Unless you plan for a 9/80 or forlough day..............although I know weekends are hard for some of use who have families......... Donna and I are talking about starting another support group in the fall on a different day so that people have more than one option per month for a formal support group..........still in the talking process but what would you guys think about adding on another option for a support group? Angel has talked to me some about working with Kaiser to get another group going.................I am still in the debating if this is a good idea phase.........but after Donna's steller performance on Saturday we might have a really good idea going here..............any input??

Hey all yep Sheena wanted to get together with everyone!! I think Fairfield is a maybe for me depends on the day and time. Next weekend I have family coming.......... .my daughter was upset we talked so long yesterday. She was suppose to go with her friends yesterday and now I think next time she will!!! LOL. I told her to go have fun but she cancelled that last minute. She goes back to school in three weeks so she won't be with me as much anymore. I am trying to not have her so involved cause her dieting and focus on healthy foods is sorta annoying me at 14 years old. She needs to be a kid!! Ah Donna that is right you are a teacher thus the visual learner thing!! I am a visual learner too so I got it. And that is also why your so chillaxed up front!! I was so impressed you did so great!! Can't tell you how great you did...........totally impressed!! I think that some people make the group a priority and some people don't. We have to respect that. Not everyone can come to the events and some people might not find them as needed as others. For me I know I need to come cause I am an isolater when I am not doing well.........I just fade out or disappear. Lately I have been tempted to isolate since I am having my 12 week roller coaster emotions. Liz and Dr. Baggs said that might happen after surgery. So I make the groups a priority cause I need them. But other people might not have the same need...........they might actually do better on their own rather than as part of a big group. I think we have to plan for the majority but respect where people are at ..............for me I will cancell other stuff to come. I have done so for the last two support meetings ( I gave up meeting my baby cousin for the first time yesterday to come)............but a couple of months ago I was not there and let other stuff come first.........depends on where people are at. But I doubt we will ever get everyone and my guess is some people will fade out or come and go........the nature of any group..............we have to let people either make meeting up a priority or not. I am sure as time goes on we will gain people and we will lose people.............. So I say we plan and people will do what they need to do and come when they need to............:-)

Hey all yep Sheena wanted to get together with everyone!! I think Fairfield is a maybe for me depends on the day and time. Next weekend I have family coming.......... .my daughter was upset we talked so long yesterday. She was suppose to go with her friends yesterday and now I think next time she will!!! LOL. I told her to go have fun but she cancelled that last minute. She goes back to school in three weeks so she won't be with me as much anymore. I am trying to not have her so involved cause her dieting and focus on healthy foods is sorta annoying me at 14 years old. She needs to be a kid!! Ah Donna that is right you are a teacher thus the visual learner thing!! I am a visual learner too so I got it. And that is also why your so chillaxed up front!! I was so impressed you did so great!! Can't tell you how great you did...........totally impressed!! I think that some people make the group a priority when they can and some people don't. We have to respect that. Not everyone can come to the events and some people might now find them as needed as others. For me I know I need to come cause I am an isolater when I am not doing well.........I just fade out or disappear. So I make the groups a priority cause I need them. But other people might not have the same need...........they might actually do better on their own than as part of a big group. I think we have to plan for the majority but respect where people are at ..............for me I will cancell other stuff to come. I have done so the last two support meetings............but a couple of months ago I was not there and let other stuff come first.........depends on where people are at. But I doubt we will ever get everyone and my guess is some people will fade out or come and go........the nature of any group.............. So I say we plan and people will do what they need to do and come when they need to............:-)

oh yea chips do go right down I hear that!! haven't tried them this fill but last fill I had to take them to my parents house after company left them.............they go right down even better with salsa!! LOL

Nicole you have some restriction girl if you can feel the shrimp!!! LOL. So glad it is not just me.......... I was laying on the couch to watch a movie and when I got up to get a drink............OMG totally restriction gain..........ok so I see how this goes!! LOL.

Oh wait until you get banded heather if your like me bread won't even tempt you anymore............I see it as a problem for the band rather than yummy now!! Good going on the soda, I quit totally the night before. LOL. Cut way back but still drank it the night before........

Hey Candra I have told my story before many times up front. Probably just not will all of your guys! I am pretty honest most people know my story. But I think everyone has a story. Candra you have a story for sure I have only heard little bits and pieces but girl you have a story and I am so glad to hear you didn't follow your parents..............girl you have done good!! What your dad said in front of his friends............sheesh girl that is awful.............and you turned out fine.............thanks to your strength nothing about him!! I don't' like your dad so much after hearing that......... we all have stories.....i am not unique!! I probably just talk more!! :-)