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My surgery was April 4th of this year. I can't keep anything down. I'm not getting enough protein or fluids. Water, protein shakes, protein waters, jello, pudding, etc all comes back up. The only thing I can eat are sugar free Popsicles. I also suck on sugar free hard candy to help with dry mouth. It's frustrating. The hard part is I cook for my family and it's difficult because I can't eat any of it. I have an appetite but everything makes me throw up (I cant move past full liquids until I reach my protein goals). I'm back at work also and at lunch everyone goes out to eat and bring their food back to the office. The smells make me want to throw up but I miss eating. I feel like I might have a mental break because I really want to cry when I think about not being able to eat and constantly throwing up. Is anyone else experiencing this? Not being able to keep anything down? Just to clarify I only take in about an ounce or 2 of liquid before I feel nauseous and usually with an hour or two it's coming back up.

Can anyone give me some encouragement that I will find happiness in life again? I feel so blah at the moment and I can’t find joy anywhere in my life. Has anyone experienced this? I am usually the positive person in the world and my personality has completely changed. Please give me some insight that this will change. I’ve only lost 17 lbs on top of it all.