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My feelings are valid like everyone else. Sorry I don't believe it gets any better. Thanks for triggering my anxiety by calling me names.. I was trying to find someone who feels the same as I do. But obviously I wont here. Don't respond to this post anymore, I am logging out and will be deleting the app. Sorry for having feelings that are bad.

Also if I knew how to delete the posts I would but again I can't figure it out. So everyone can stop replying because I don't believe it will ever get better. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

Yes I did have the psychological evaluation.. I was fine up until after the surgery and once I got home all the very bad thoughts took over. I am not a troll I just don't believe 100% of the ppl who has the surgery are completely happy with it.. some must regret it. Getting proper therapy isn't so easy to find and I still have to do some intake call. If I knew how to delete this account I would. But I don't. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I don't believe in God. Sorry Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

Thing is I don't want to. Life is pointless now. Sorry Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

Yes I am. But I don't see it making a difference. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I don't care what my BMI was or is. I will always regret this until i die. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I won't ever recommend this surgery to anyone. I don't ever plan on talking about it out loud again, except for at therapy..when and if I can get in to see someone. If anyone asks me about it in person, I will say I don't talk about it. I truly don't care about anything anymore. Sorry. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

That's the thing..I don't even care about being that small.. I don't think I will ever feel good about this horrible choice and it sucks that I seem to be the only person I'm the world who hates the choice. I don't ever see feeling like myself again.. I really just hope my medical stuff gets worse and the universe takes me away from this hell for good. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I should've canceled because I was losing the weight on my own before this horrible choice. I am 5ft4 and was 210.. was also told I never looked very big but my brain convinced me otherwise.. I don't even care about losing the weight anymore, I don't care about being thin or skinny. I am just going to isolate myself like I always do because now after mutilating my insides..I don't deserve any good ever again. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I hate all of it. I am the pickiest eater I'm the world and won't eat most things. I hate that I can't drink with my meals, I hate what they tell me I should eat because I won't eat like 90%of it.. worst decision ever. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I feel this way because I should've canceled and I didn't. I will always regret this for the rest of my life..which I hope isn't too much longer. I didn't need the surgery and I convinced myself I did. Hence why I hate myself more than I ever have. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

It seems that I am literally the only one who 100%completely regrets this surgery. I have never hated myself this much in my life. I was so obsessed with this weight loss crap for 3 yrs and now 6 weeks healed from VSG and I hate life completely now. I will never be or feel like myself again and feel I don't deserve anything good ever again. This was the worst decision of my life and I keep having ptsd flashbacks of wishing I had never done this..that I canceled when I had the chance. Why am I the only one who fully regrets this.. I can't be the only one in the world who regrets it completely... Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app

I honestly don't care about being skinny or losing the weight anymore. I brainwash myself and now I see how wrong I was. Once fully healed I plan on gradually stretching my stomach back to a more normal size.. worst decision of my life.

Had my surgery March 23 and now I absolutely hate my life. I wish I canceled the whole thing even 4 hrs before I was supposed to fly out. All I think about is suicide now and that now life is pointless. I see my doctor Wednesday, but seeing so many be happy about the choice seems to make me even more angry at myself because I was never that big to begin with ..but my mental issues told me otherwise. I can't be the only person who had gastric sleeve to feel this way... so very alone. Sent from my SM-G781W using BariatricPal mobile app