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I'm a bit of a drinker.. my op is in 8 days..Initially I have to give it up..but I think on special occasions I'll do vodka soda and a couple table spoons lemon juice..The mixers have been the killer for me Sent from my SM-N980F using BariatricPal mobile app

I've been really overwhelmed with the response I've gotten from my original post.. Thankyou to all of you for your really kind words...it was difficult for me to write and share how I was feeling.... I am a strong woman..ive just lost my way due to the suicide of my only niece and the father of my children in the last 2 years..I lost myself in the grief....But I've had enough of this sadness that has consumed me..I spent the full moon weekend crying uncontrollably...it was time for me to come to grips with everything that made me sad and to say goodbye to that unrecognisable person I've become ..so in a sense.. that part of me had to die to give way to the new ME... So I look forward to the woman that I know will evolve and bring to life the new ME... 8 days till my surgery...I look forward to sharing my journey with you all... Yes I am Worth It... And Yes You Are Worth It. Bless,..., Sent from my SM-N980F using BariatricPal mobile app

I also cancelled my surgery after the consultation..I went home thought about it...and opted out...Now 4months later...I have rebooked for 31st august...My only concerns about medication is the addiction... most diet pills give you an adrenalin high..like speed.. Sent from my SM-N980F using BariatricPal mobile app

Thanks for your kind words hon...All those boxes have been ticket.. ive just been sad for a long time...I just needed to reset and Winter didn't help.... Sent from my SM-N980F using BariatricPal mobile app

I was due to have the gastric sleeve operation on 30th April.. I cancelled..I am now scheduled on 31st September..I'm having a hard time coming to grips with the surgery fees...Whilst I can afford it, I feel guilty that I'm spending that money on. ME....IM ANGRY with MYSELF...angry that I have to resort to surgery to lose the 40kg I had put on the previous 2 years...ANGRY because I don't recognise my reflection in the mirror...I don't want to look like this anymore...ive become a functioning alcoholic...ive become sad and lost over the loss of two people who have tragedy checked out of this life....Ive just let myself go...So I've come to the conclusion...that if I don't do this surgery I will die.... So I'm resetting my Life Clock...I am worth more than the price of a surgery...I just didn't think I had the energy or strength to do anything about changing my life's path...I'm an optimist...I'm a Libran..I can see light at the end of this tunnel...I can see me...and I can see the person in that reflection..Its ME.. I look forward to my journey... Bless to everyone on their Tasmania Australia Sent from my SM-N980F using BariatricPal mobile app